Tis' ain't the season to be jolly.

How many of you out there are celebrating christmas with such joy and happiness? Exchanging presents, wishing each other, giving hugs and kisses with your loved ones.


My christmas of 2010 is pure bullshit.

Me an underdog in the society as termed by many, I suffer in silence in the shadows of community, how many people are unhappy during christmas I ask you?

I spent christmas shovelling and cleaning the grave of my elder brother Daniel with the whole family. I went home in a car filled with scoldings and shit. I was bombarded with a string of crap by my parents, and here's the best part, I didn't initiate anything.

I'm sick and tired of you bossin me around. SPM is over, I got through it, I ENTERED COLLEGE. And you're here to critique that I haven't met your standards?

YES I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU 'FATHER'.

You know I'm weak in my academical studies, you know I shit in it. I gathered up enough determination and perseverance to get it through SPM, and I don't hear a single shit of any encouragement or a little 'well done' pat behind the back. Instead you fuck me up with 'Who call you never spend time to study? You study better can get scholarship and we don't have to spend money on you. Show some gratitude la, you're a very ungrateful person from birth.'.. You know how fucked up is that? You can't take me as being a different person from other peoples' sons?

I've got news for you, I grew up with you scolding my head off before my cranium was even constructed, it's now filled with unnecessary bile from your spit. I'm doing well without your 'advice', so kthxbai and stfu. Every crap from you from young is how u dislike my academics, and how I suck at it. Guess what, it's my life, so stop acting that you care, I do well without it.

I'm artistic, you're a workaholic. You'll NEVER enter my world even if you tried. I opened doors for you, you shut them off with your shallow perspective mindset. Nuff elaborating, my mouth and fingers are tired of saying how far-off you are and you dare claim you are.

I've got something stored for you, and if it prospers, I'll shove it in your face and say: You called me to do whatever I want and see if I can live without you? Here's the shit back in your face.

I'm going college soon, how long do you wanna keep this up? I'm growing, why are you stunted? Is age catching up faster than the generation? Or your mind is going through retardation as your age advances huh?


"God made each of us individually special, you can get out of my life if you think I'm not". - Josh von Alejandro

Thanks for being with me all the way baby ♥.

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Joey ~

Fresh starts.

SPM is history. Nuff said about that. The trick is, if you want something to come faster, don't think about it. It's a reverse psychology that has accompanied me throughout my years in high school.

I'm still finding it difficult to digest the fact that I don't have to put on my school uniform anymore for the rest of my life. It's a bittersweet moment to have, walking out of the school gate after the last paper was over. There weren't screams of joy like there used to for PMR or UPSR, everybody's an adult now. I stood to enjoy the serene moment for a second or two at the main gate. And look, life goes on.

Moving on, the future.

I see promising courses affording me to enhance my full potential towards music. UCSI, AICM, Monash. My primary target however is UCSI. Offering me foundation for my music, and 3 years bacholar ahead. Promising indeed.

Many youtube performers inspired me much; Mike Thompkins, Sam Tsui, many more, doing covers of songs. It's pretty much related to my future career as closely as it's related to them in studios. Maybe a little difference, with much humility, I don't sing.

Current equipments needed, an empty room, modulator, microphone, laptop, desktop (yes, 2 computers), good wiring system, Hi-Fi playbacks, keyboard. Yamaha equipment seems to be prospective, might give it a shot.

Ye know, lack of blogging can encourage brain blocks.

2nd option, american degree program.

Past is gone, future is coming, can u be my present?

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Joeyy ~

Post Resurrection.

Resurrected post: Terrace Tranced.

This is a post, from a broken hearted,
No silent prayer for the faith departed
And I ain't gonna be just a face in the shadows,
You're never hear my voice, but I'm screaming out loud.

It's my life.


Corny, but my link already says it all.

My recent post was a special dedication, so shall this one be, just another scripture be written in black and white, only in this case, it's over the proxy servers.

Many a time I hath sensed this, but why wasn't I sure.
I use to be able to feel things before they happen,
I know I'm wearing spectacles,
But it seems I'm growing blind to notice,
I am losing my touch.

I'm suppose to type this in paragraphs,
but I've conveyed most of my message to you in instant messaging form.
The times we had, our faith is sealed.
But no more, time itself was revealed.
Profound it must seem,
My cranium is bursting,
Not for the loss of words,
but painful flashbacks presumed forgotten.

Once upon a time it was,
not many hath known our past,
It's our dirty little secret,
But being dirty has it's price to pay.
Delighted,
but never lasted.
I used to know you like the back of my hand,
now it's darker than midnight.

My deepest message, convey to you, I hath not.
only time will tell.
Time is relevant,
Stripped from reality I was,
I feel the serenity of silence.
Reality has a mind of it's own,
knocking back sense into me,
I feel the surge with a cocktail of emotions.

As it is said, my message to you hath been acknowledged by you.
I've been finding ways to convey it to you,
I've threaded lightly,
Still I don't know how,
Because I don't know you anymore..
Sought guidance,
I use to think I was the source of it,
Nevertheless it is done.
A weight off my load.

People change,
for the better or for the worse.
Trust in my command,
thy path is cleared.
Let there be light,
for light hath been bestowed by the One.

Hence I shalt only be able to ponder,
over your last message to me
in the instant messaging window.


A dedicated post, ending with the origin to my blog. Shadows Of LIfe.

Yes SH.

"My heart is like an open highway"
It's my life - Bon Jovi

Yours truly,
- Jw²~

Let's put a pin in it.

Entering into the month of November, I look back to see how fast time flew. I flashbacked the week I found myself so busy preparing for prom, intensive courses and what not, all over in a flash.

Picture says it all. Yes I'm ecstatic. I got my license in less than 5 days after the driving exam.

One thing I really looked forward to, was the prom. It wasn't the prom, it was the performance. I didn't sign up for prom for 3 reasons:

1. It's RM88 for a budget room.
2. It's before SPM. Timing is so out.
3. They mentioned no outsiders allowed, immediately I said forget it. (You should know why)


Anyway I signed up for performance just to get a glimpse of the interior. Venue was Empire Hotel. Performance was alright. Can't believe it's over. I got so bonded to my band.

I'm gonna miss all the practices held in the bilik pengawas, my house, and the fellowship.

Sure miss playing with great people like you, we make up ColdSwift a.k.a. SwiftPlay.

From left to right: Kat Jin-Ji, Joshua Jarret Ganesan, Diane Sim, Leon Wee, Joshua Wong, Esther Chow.




In order,
Pianist - Kat Jin-Ji
Violinists - Diane Sim, Esther Chow, Leon Wee
Bassist - Joshua Wong
Drums - Joshua Jarret Ganesan.

Shit quality, mics didn't pick up the violins clearly.. But it's a rep. I'm waiting for a clearer quality, will upload when I have it.

Another priority complete. I can't seem to blog like how I used to few months back.. Maybe it's because I indeed have discovered my purpose. But I don't wish to drift away from that realm, I wish to continue inspiring people with my posts like I used to. Guess Imma have to wait till after SPM and see how the feel comes back to me then.

Studying moral nilais. I'm betting my 5 credits on the line.


What's so difficult with academics? Is my right brain just bigger or my left brain's just underdeveloped? - Josh von Alejandro.


Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Continued from previous post.

I ♥ you Baby Joey.

An auspicious day celebration.

This week has been a hassle for me. Scheduled is filled with priorities. Focus SPM programme in my school for 1 whole week, not to mention prom approaching in 2 more days.

Basically I have less than a month to rot before SPM comes..and I hope to rot in a good way.

2 days ago, I celebrated baby's birthday at a Jusco. Raymond, Yi Hong, and Jane Foo accompanied us for GreenBox(cousin of RedBox) karaoke session. For the first time in a long time I released myself with a blast with the microphone. The feeling was sensational.

But here's my baby and the 2 others performing a song which won them 2nd place in their school competition.




Later, operation Surprise initiated, Me and Raymond and Yi Hong went out of GreenBox for a moment. We entered the room again with candles-lit Big Apple Doughnuts. (a substitute for a cake, budget indeed).

Then the music in the room turned off, and started playing Happy Birthday. The look on baby's face was priceless. Singing happy birthday, making her wishes, blowing off the candles. Typical progression of a birthday proceeded.





Raymond isn't a very good photographer, his hand keeps shaking. Epic. Better photos will be obtained soon from other cameras. Stay tuned.


Moving on, went to see The Other Guys at GSC. Action + comedy = crackpot laughing. Jane went home after GreenBox. Movie wasn't really that good, but nobody cared. With a few more hours to spend, we went for bowling and had late lunch.

After Yi Hong and Raymond left, it was me and babe left. Forgot to buy baby her ice cream.
Spent what was left of our quality time together left, baby's father fetched me home. How thoughtful.

Happy birthday once again baby, love to have spent it together with you ♥

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Victory, and beyond.

"Click on photo to enlarge"

Slope, parking, and 3-point-turn, perfected.

On the road. Almost perfection...almost.

Waiting next week for P license. One priority of life completed. Next, SPM. I'm really missing those times where my driver instructor taught me everything. Mr Yap's really the man. Lunch was on him once, and now I must return the favour soon. Don't worry, I'm a man of my word.

And,

I'm gonna miss driving your Kancil..

Miss all the times you've complained bout me not pressing the clutch to the max, but I've perfected it. No worries, I'm riding solo hereon after. God I sound like a soap opera.

Priority 2 set, memorize moral nilai for the bloody moral paper.

Screw that, tomorrow's my baby's birthday. Gonna have a hell of a time ♥.

Each station brings me closer to you.

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Total Makeover

I have officially changed my blogskin and the theme of my blog.

I will no longer be known as the Shadows of Life. Moving forward with life, I have set my soul and made this change..


I've put my past behind me. No longer in darkness, for I have found light. For I have found reason for living.

Enter, the new chapters of my proceeding journal.



Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Step it up.

Last post, August 5. I wondered how long I disappeared from the blogging sphere.

I have a lot to post up.. pictures especially.. But blogger got me frustrated. Slow upload speed, Unifi seems to be better than streamyx.

I'll let my pictures do the talking. Of where I disappeared. First of all, Melaka Jonker Street.


Arrived at night..for a one night trip.




Next morning,

Wonderful grammer.

And the "Houses"

Notice the flags.

I got bored.. So I fogged up the bathroom with hot water in the tub, and with the condensed droplets of water on the mirror, I did this out of boredom..

Never forgotten this I found on a menu.

I had to leave out much details.. I'm technically cramming everything into this one post.

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Next day, date with baby. She brought company along, bei and one guy forgot name le. Went redbox and movie with them.. Still holding the receipt in my hands.

Nerd modes on. What's the deal with street lights. You'll find out sooner.


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Latest news feed. I'm finally progressing with my driving. Had my second lesson just 2 days ago. My instructor said I learned quick. Learning parking and 3 point turn in less than an hour.. It was kinda fun. Then he asked me to drive him round taipan and USJ23 area. Mastered the clutch and gear better than my first lesson. Now I'm going over 50km/h and my instructor is calling me to rilek..

Second trials for SPM is over. JPS did a better job for not leaking out as much as this mid term but I never really did bother about leaks though. SPM is like, 1 more month.

I just don't get why I don't feel the pressure.

This has gotta be my Most Pictured Post yet.

Oh yeah, and happy 9 months 1 day le baby.. We've come a long way. ♥

Streaks of light over jonker street. I love this picture. This was the deal with street lights.

Yours truly,
Josh ♥ Jojo

Life at a glimpse

Lets commentate on the wildest decisions made and doubted that it was reconsidered to its maximum. I will be facing trial exam of SPM this saturday. Easy ain't it?. What's out of place is that other schools will be having their trials 1 month later. Second, the first day is on a saturday. Let's give a big hand to the principal. Yes and I mean a big hand, the one that embeds a bodyglove mark on her face.

This week itself is a countdown, yet I felt that time is frozen. I feel I still have so much time. Sense of timing, clock in my body wound out of bounds? I couldn't care less. It's just exams. 5 credits is enough to get me through. What I'm about to do in the future doesn't involve any of my current registered academics. What a waste of 2 years.

Right, forgotten. It's nothing much.. but..

God, I passed undang. After 7 months of delaying.. Due to personal reasons of course. I'm colour blind. I assume you know that did you? Mild, not to worry. And I thought the exam was hard, 50 questions of nonsense some people say. Study the night before, and you have no problem. Yes, you have to study. Many questions came out from what I read the night before. The car plate number test, it's like testing your intelligence. WTF 126.. What do you see? Precisely the point.


Met my baby last week. At least I got the chance to see her once more just before the exams. Drives my perspiration much. Intended to go and study maths, end up doing God-knows-and-you-know stuff. Well, making the most out of it. Exam is approaching. A little happenings
scenes:

Yes, she's studying history. God knows what drug she took for her concentration capacity.

Back at the station whilst I was waiting for the train back, I saw this mini cat licking up an ice cream puddle. It was a big puddle. I glance back to see how blessed I have been, rather than to be as stray as a cat. I actually took pity to that small creature and gave it some Maggi Hot Cup soup for it to drink. Yes, I was hungry so I bought one.

And just a little bit of extra info. I redecorated my room for an extra ambiance of effect, study aura initiated. As I'm typing this, the feel is coming on. Better not lose it. It's hard to initiate.

You're a blessing in my path, it's lighted by the flare of our love.

Yours truly,
Josh ♥ Jojo.

Don't call my name.

Tricked into a trance,
I doubt thee hath a clue,
I was drawn to you.
Fate brought us together.
We met with the wierdest perspective.
Petrified at the thought,
of the chances I,
could find such a perfect girl like you.

I may not be fluent with words,
nor get you the greatest gifts.
But you,
never fail to show me
the love that is so unconditional.
Distance be our obstacle,
the test of faith.
We stood by for over 6 months.
Growing deeper by the second.

I ain't afraid,
for you're in my embrace.
You've given me a force unlike any other.
One that drives me past limits.
Over my head.
A relationship like this,
many couples would die for.
I wish to show your love to the external,
but deemed unauthorized
by the law of love.
Controversy be it not,
You're perfect from every angle.

I may not be the perfect guy,
but my love for you,
beats every other,
incomparable beyond every comparison.
Baby, I love you.
It indeed is deemed as forever.
I find myself at lost of words,
at every moment I taste your lips.
Conversation with between our hearts,
no doubt our only form of communication,
since your serene lips,
sealed with mine for what seems like eternity.

Never will I walk a lonely road ever,
with you side by side.
Mountains and valleys,
can hardly symbolize the deepness
of us lovers.
Hence, I don't remark first person terms,
I use We.
As We are One.
A long road stretched beneath our feet,
awaiting more adventures we can share
with each other.

A love like this,
worthy of the eternal flame.
I'll keep it going,
for as long as I live.
Don't call my name,
Silence speaks everything.
Enhances the atmosphere,
Dust of the cupid surrounds us.
We drift off to a land,
where only the true dwell.
Viva la amantes como nosotros.
Spanish be I.

I will never let you go, be it forever.

Yours True'ly,
Josh ♥ Bibii Jojo

Picture in a portrait.

Of what seems like a flick, half the year has gone behind us. And we have the notion to feel as time had a wormhole. Press it on. Life of an under-averaged kid.

As I glance back the past I realised how much time and world had revolved, no turning back, no scraping grubs. Thankfully conferred with the sense of time, it somehow revolves slower around my region. They say bad times crawl and good times fly. Choose the mindset to feel that good times are coming to an end, hence appreciating the enjoyment and blissfulness to the maximum.

Changes, the substance to the issue that was hereby inevitable, drags humans to loopholes of destiny where the future was unknown. I seem to press alot about time and future lately. Maybe its cause I've spoken thoroughly about life, thus having precognitions about the future?.. Skipping the fact about pushing your choices in life to the side, independence was undoubtedly a vital weapon for the gunslinger. I always knew spontaneous changes in individuals are, but most are unaware of the advent cause that lies ahead of each road taken.. Done it may be, but bitch please, them be my choice I hath made.. Analysed the consequences, I suffer me and me alone. A no more but a mere human inadequate to the rapid alteration of space and time. I wept.

In a translucent disarray, I find myself hypnotised into a world filled with unforgiving dismay. On the contrary, I sound like a hypocrite. Damn with the thought of failures day by day. Is it merely a side effect, or just a form of reverse psychology? I admit with balls of steel, I am nothing but a failure. That seperates me from society. I have no regrets, once again I rev myself to try to perform great acts in which others incomparable, withstanding failures again and again, I finally conclude that talents really are limited. But harness it to the fullest, it is one's greatest asset of survival and entertainment.

Was once discriminated, am still. I find peace. To the blind eyes of most, I sadly salute you my regards. We people, don't go round enjoying luxurious outings, meals, bondings, gossips, camwhoring. And maybe even self declaration of depravity, hence you complete your full set of a delicious meal that consists mostly of unappreciation and a lack of self conscience. Your aptitude of judgement proves much. You just pose nothing much than just an obstruction which is easily overcomed by ignorance. Once again, I retake lowering one's humanity just as much as what I recieved. Merely an iron block behind a face, a picture in a portrait. The irony of life.

Life as a chip, you'll never realise how good it tasted till the last crunch.

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Take a peek into life's delusions.

Alright. Enter, yours truly.

I've rotted this holidays. I know time isn't in my hands right now but I don't feel a thing about upcoming exams. Is it because of my declination of studies? Or merely I lost interest. Concluded. It is both.

I fell into a relapse of mind as time revolved right in front of me eyes. I had a dream few nights ago. Standing right in space, where events, pictures, memoirs, experiences, drifted past my vision, where I believed I even saw the future.. An unclear future. Yours truly has been granted the gift of precognition. But with barely 2% chance of success. Nevertheless, nobody feels normal going to sleep almost every night with dreams of reality. I guess some are just bestowed with such abilities for the sake of changing lives.

Life as an outcast brings peace. I thoroughly enjoy the serenity in which most have no clue how to feel. Things I do being alone most of the time, I look back at past posts of my blog. The most powerful posts of all. Most of the time I don't crack myself to think of verbs and definitions to blog, but merely just write what my heart has to say. And when I look back, I feel life as it is, is capable of changing fates and lives of one's characteristics and personality. I feel, I have almost written everything about life that I know, reached into corners, dug deeper, and trust me, I am still digging for more gold to produce experience of life.

Frail, puny humans like we. We can wonder why humans even existed. But we exist for a purpose and its only up to us and us only to discover our purpose for living. I, despicable me, have said, destiny don't shape you, you shape your own destiny. I agree, I keep looking back at my stories of success post.. And everytime I glance at it, I get a brain block. Virtually all my thoughts, experience, and life is being conferred in black and white onto that post.

I look at things, which are blind to many. You see a printer, I see the ink. You see noodles in a bowl, I see the bowl in which the noodles are in. You sing the melody of music, I focus the bass. You see a magician pulling a rabbit out of a hat, I see the gestures of his hand. Sometimes just looking at things from a different perspective and angle can give a rekindling glow to the dull lives of an individual. We cannot define life. As life means a different prospect to different people. LIFE as it is, goes beyond Whit's End looking for a definition that fits all criteria.

I'm still digging for gold in life, looking for more perspective to convey to humans how life should be lived. You cry because you failed your examinations, you cry because somebody you love passed away. There's no harm in it. It is only nature for humans to shed tears, as thou has been blessed with tear ducts to show emotions. But straying in the past and not letting go, is one of life's many a great mistake. Maybe this is why I don't give a damn about my examination results... Who am I kiddin here, the irony of life is there. A hypocrite is currently sitting behind this screen, telling you about how life is, from the deadly past of his mistakes made. Following the principle, I hath set a goal. If life is to strangle down from the ropes of the gallows, I just have to make sure nobody follows down my path. The ultimate inspiration must be created.

Be the light to guide my path. I stare at the setting sun as the horizon draws open the valley to a perspiration filled with joy, depression, maybe a tinge of anger. And again, its just a life, of a mere human being.

Awaiting results from the Sunway University Creative Blogging competition. Low hopes. They promoted a post from my nemesis. It even breaks my heart to refer you as a nemesis.


As one's ego drenches the crowd, he deprives of his humility and serves as a lower. - Quoted me.


Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

When it was parents day.

I don't hold back.
I'm dealt with the sheer pressure.
Things don't work out
as we want them to.
I'm human.
It's just ordinarily normal.

In time I realise the reason for living
is in the entertainment of others.
But them be it the mockers.
I find no refuge but myself.
What I incline,
to imply on you, my parents...
Once a year this takes place.
An event overlooked by most.
Especially me.

Time is not in my hands
at the moment.
So..
Happy parents day.
I can't believe I'm saying this.
I love you both..
No further questions.
I reconcile with me myself and I
To bring forth my courage
To let you know.
That is if you even swing by my blog.

"50 thousand years of childcare and they call it a cult?"
Lich - Kel'Thuzad

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

And it just keeps coming.

Last post = May3 . Which shows my absence from the blogging world.

Solely the reason is because I want to keep the last 3 posts a headline for as long as I could. But anyway the world must keep spinning.

I held on a perspective that exams are gonna be a drag. Reverse psychology applied. And its one week left till exams are over. Mid terms I mean. For once I'd actually put in some effort for an examination since the year of the cow. With a little help of some leaks of course. Rage mode on for the oncoming trials.

Taking my undang khusus this saturday. It's been 5 months late...since I'm a January baby. Better late than never, although initially I am only allowed to take after SPM. In this case, since I will take it sooner or later, why not sooner?

I find a lack of time at the moment to post personal thoughts such as the previous posts. Busy working with piano pieces for my graduation event.

And yes, I despise myself for failing in academics. I will cover this up with a surge of artistic performance. I wonder myself, why wasn't I born a smart student getting A's for studies, instead born into the artistic world where most people think are failures?.. This I left it in God's hands, and his lamp lights my path. With no complains, I thoroughly follow it.

"If it must be done"
Darkterror - Faceless Void

Yours truly,

- Jo ♥ Jo ~

My Dream Story of Success

edited july 3. Link to picture: http://www.sunway.edu.my/mysuccess Sorry I can't link the picture back to your website. Tried and cant.

I recently stumbled upon this contest in my MSN inbox. So I'd thought hey, why not give it a shot?

The title is as it is written. My Success, My Dreams. But the content in which I was indicated, shows that it must be written to create inspiration in people. Solely overall, my blog as been always to inspire people and drive them towards their goals.

I will start off with myself. Yours truly is Joshua Wong. Age 17 this year and having only one dream. The dream to strive for the best and for the greater good. Nevertheless, my story doesn't start off with an admirable headline. I've troubles with my studies. My parents had many a time given me lectures about how terrible my studies were. Turns out, I was diagnosed with the disorder named ADHD. (Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder). I couldn't sit still for 10 minutes to read a book I didn't enjoy. I'm hyperactive in the classroom. It is as though things I weren't interested in, I'd barely put my focus into it. This disorder contributed to my academic decline.

Henceforth, I was discouraged. My examination results never showed flying colours. But I thought to myself: "No matter. Giving up ain't a choice". For the public acknowledgement, I have completed my Grade 8 both practical and theoretical examinations in the Associated Board Royal School of Music, otherwise known as ABRSM. I too have finished the Yamaha Grade 5. It seems as I have developed a sense of interest in music ever since I was a toddler. Truth is, I am very grateful of my parents to have detected this particular interest, and have sent me for music classes at a tender age of 4. I assure you, their sacrifice was never in vain. I developed perfect pitch, well hearing, and good senses of improvisation, one of the many vital assets in my life.

Eventually, I discovered myself as an artistic person. Sadly, most asian parents these days have the implication of failures of being somebody that is not involved in the business world. Economics seem to run in their blood, therefore having inadequate knowledge about the entertainment world. My dream, I plan to strive the road towards music, and create colours in the dull and mundane lives of individuals that lack enjoyment and serenity of music. I have determined my path of my future. It is inevitably true that one must have his or her future planned out ahead soon, or risk being caught in a crossroad of decision making.

My thematic role to you is not just about letting you know my past and dreams, it is to pose a positive thinking into minds of individuals regardless of age that dreams are possible to come true. Nevertheless one has to come to realization that dreaming or acting alone proves futile. If one dreams, but no actions are taken, hence it is no different than fantasizing. On the contrary, if one takes actions blindly with no dreams or goals, it is the same as wandering in the wilderness without a map, leading you far from your destination. Both dreams and actions are an important ploy to success. Just as it is written, it takes two hands to clap, two people to tango, two chopsticks to eat, two persons to have intercourse. You get the idea.

Obstacles are always present on the road to success. To be honest, this is a form of perspective. Different individuals take the definition of the term 'obstacle' differently. Some see it as a challenge, some see it as a turning point. Whereas some looks at it with a positive manner, and some see it and gives up hope altogether. In my point of view and experience, obstacles in life are what builds up a person's individual character, behavior, and decision making skills. Many a time I run into obstacles of different shapes and sizes with all types of disguises. Regardless big or small it is, the only thing keeping me from straying the track is by mere perseverance and determination. It is vital that one must possess a will of iron and a heart of flaming desire. These are attributes that keeps my vision focused onwards my dreams.

If one has no dream, dream now. If one has a dream, strive for it with determination and overcome perpetual forces of temptation to draw you away from it. Friends and family are a worthy companion along for the battle. But bear in mind that they are only to assist and guide you, and not determine your future. We shape our own destiny. With a little hard work, we will be able to reach for the stars.

Along the path to the horizon, streaks of shame showers upon me. With only the little beacon to light my path.

Written by,
Joshua Wong Jun Wai

Anatomy of the mind.

Sometimes the chances of crossing paths with a certain object or image, triggers what might be called the past reality, or perhaps even a dream one hath set foot on. Many a time one gives up due to daily dilemmas obstructing the course of pursuing the dream, or just plainly because of laziness and overrated indulgence of pleasure.

I've seen people failing time and again. As a leader, I believe my goal is to lead my minors to success. A leader is about creating followers, and ultimately, creating leaders. I see individuals fall to the ground, flailing like there's no tomorrow. Some in high sounds singing requiems of their failures. Moreover, the phrase 'bitter comes before sweet' seems to kick in most of the time.

I do agree, I'm a hypocrite. I've seen failures, I've failed myself. But the difference I make is that my feet never left the ground, springing itself back up.. Sometimes I reconcile with my subconscious mind with the 5 basic questions of life, 4W1H. This reflects back on most events to have ever made it to my permanent memory. Recently I have posted about mistakes in life.. Lies never disappear, it will remain till one day it is discovered hence being disastrous..

I've crosspathed with many flashbacks.. Never have I ever wished time would turn itself backwards to rewind phases of my life to repair my mistakes nor correcting wrong-doings.. These are experiences of life, where one would perish without the acknowledgement. I'm stating that most people waste more than ½ of their lives thinking back on how to change the past, thus obstructing their vision of the future.. Past creates you, present shows who you are, future improves you.. Delusions will still haunt you, your alliance binds you.. And you can say Damn to all who oppose you and fight for what is right.

This quote, I can give my right hand that most of Thee hath stumbled upon a time or another. "Yesterday's history, Tomorrow's a mystery. But today, is a gift. That's why we call it the present." Inspirational quote. I live by it.. It disallows me from having the mindset that failures will never prosper. The damn truth is that failures turn out to be the most successful people in history of mankind. Knowledge is a gift, not a privilege. Talents are on the contrary. These 2 elements in life are your assets to your future, your Touch n' Go for your toll stations.. Lose the card, and you will always have the shillings. Drawback is, it will always be troublesome to hear jingles of coins. Just as inadequate knowledge stands.

I merely portray my thoughts into this black and white format. Not by referring to references online or books as most of you would think I did.. Technically this is a summarized version of the true story going through my head.. I wish I could just pour my memoirs and experiences into this. But yet again, the world wide web has it's limited means, so is the human anatomy. Perhaps one day if science could advance itself further into creating a whole biological synchronization of the brain with the web, I say this enhancement don't just drop from the heavens.. It is mere sweat and blood of individuals who have failed yet again, and they are never called failures.

The mosaic distortion of the sun and clouds, significance of mind.

"Trust in my command"
Mirana Nightshade - Priestess of the Moon

Yours truly,
Josh ♥ Jojo

Hey wassup bitch?

A dedicated post to all who insults me.. Wow look, a dedication post. Be honoured.

Can I help you?
It should have been like this,
Can you be helped?
Out of the question.
Judge me if you must,
Ultimately, your false judgement shall not prevail.

Down with insults. I've had loads of them. Come to think of it, People insult you because they're jealous of you. Or they insult you because they can't be what you truly are capable of.
So to speak. And usually I take peoples' insults as a form of constructive criticism. The insults I have taken over these past years pressed my perservarance. Sorry to you who wanna insult me, I'm invulnerable. But sad to say, each time you wanna insult me, I'll just put a mirror in your face. And that makes you twice as hideous. Smart people think twice before they act, and obviously you're neither smart nor a thinker =).

Terdapat seorang bernama Angel dalam blog Shi Hui.
Wondering who was that.
I may not know the name.
But it obviously is a coward.
Yes I said "it".
It somehow occured to me that
Angel and Ugly Hater ( in my chat box)
Might be the same person.
Just an assumption. Don't know if it's true.
Because both shared same similarities.

It's sad to see people like that wasting their lives insulting people with inadequate knowledge of the other party. I forgive people like these as they really are born idiots.. It's out of my power, since God made them in his image..

http://canijustsayiloveyou.blogspot.com/

Here is the link in which it is written.. Critiques like these come by once in a green moon. I guess I should honor them, both for being 'special' and brainless at the same time. On the contrary, they might be smart. But just by indicating somebody else a lesser being, proved them otherwise.. What a waste of being human. It is not in my nature to stab people in the back. Well to those who aren't 1337 enough, yes, I do not insult people..

Well, every great or soon to be individuals must face critiques like these, part of life's discovering journey I presume.. The more criticism I face, the more stronger I shalt be. Bombard me if you must, either way, I will always win. Insult me, you lose, I gain. Insult me not, save your face, save your dignity. This is specially for annoymous haters out there..

A last message I must convey to intelligently deceased individuals.. He who points the finger at me will point 3 fingers back at himself, whereas the thumb hereby faces me. Your selective disinformation proves futile if you are to tell the world who I am.. So learn something here. Humans are always learning. As said.. You are forgiven, both by the One and by me..

"It's about time"
Slayer - Lina Inverse

Your's truly,
Josh ♥ Jojo.

Mistakes.

Mistakes, mere mistakes.
Repeated over and over again.
It's nothing wrong to make them mistakes,
Mistakes are meant to be made,
it is meant to be corrected,
Thus nobody is 100% perfect.

The psychology of the human mind,
think some mistakes that they hath made,
are far beyond the borders of remedial.
We're mere humans,
We're just enclosed in our prison of our mindset.

The sick truth is mistakes may claim our very lives.
Once upon a time I was bestowed life once more,
Surviving electrocution.
I thank the One that He has enabled me to continue on my journey towards life.
Mistakes I made,
Some that I have learned from,
some in which are just careless.

To those out there who weeps at the thought of agony and pain.
Damn to you who are unworthy of self respect.
Get back on your feet.
Your revenant past,
Holds no bounds but sheer pain.
Time is taken for experience,
Time is needed to repair broken souls.
Hence, time is relative.
Radical conclusions are just a finger's touch away.

Making a mistake.
Has it's comeback and the ultimate feedback.
Despite the truth about mistakes being made and learnt.
One fatal mistake can bring oneself to the knees.
Or worse still,
the greatest downfall.
No ultimate mistake may be formed verbally
yet the action will and always speak louder than words.

Outcast I have been,
I have concluded that it is destined.
I guess all paths are made by one himself.
Nobody determines your destiny,
Nobody makes your decisions.
The devil's advocate will try to drive you from your path time and again.
Perserverance is the only method.
The code of the damned in which to destroy you shalt ultimately fail.

I was strayed.
I was lost.
Never history shall repeat itself.
I have located my power within.
To drive me on,
hence accelerating me forward.
My one and only obstacle.
Lies just beyond my perspective.
Academics.

Reconciled,
Repented,
Reminisced.
Nevertheless, mistakes will bound to be made always.
Accept truths in your miserable life.
Cold hard truths that stare at you right in your face.
Different individuals make different wrong doings.
But yet every single body shares the same concept.
"I was wrong"

As I now stare at the night sky.
Breathing in the cool night air.
Allowing me to meditate on repairing holes of my past.
None remains.
I live life with no regrets.
NO one stands in my way.
In my mindset,
mistakes are mere pawns of greater obstacles in life.

To a certain somebody who mentions inadequacy deprived of your looks,
and hence hypocrisy..
I have only 3 words for you.
You ugly fuck.
Now that is one mistake in which is irreparable. Glad it is that way.

"I've been thinking"
Lich - Kel'Thuzad

Your's truly,
Josh ♥ Jojo.