17 months, what?

Yes, it's been 17 months. A blissful 17 months.

Hope you're having fun at NS baby. I've been missing you. Meanwhile since you can't read this, imma crap some stuff.

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You brought colour into my life, you never fail to make me smile (even though sometimes I act oblivious to it). You're what every man wants, needs, and provide. Love. 17 months sweep by like a breeze. I smile when I think bout our first touch, hug, and kiss. You're perfect in the eyes of every lover. You're beautiful, you're sexy, you're the best thing that ever happened in my life, and you always will be. You're the little dime I found sitting lonely on the pavement, and I'm gonna take care of it because you're my lucky dime.

I'm so glad our love is true,

everlasting.

"I love you long time so you know the meaning."
I Just Can't Get Enough - Black Eyed Peas

Yours truly,

- josh ♥ babyjoey ~

A touch of nature.

Ok it's been seriously a while since my last update. Semester 2 of ADP was really much harder then Semester 1. But no matter, I still love it.

I will not post chronologically, but I'll announce what I can.

Derp.

I recently found a new passion. Dancing! *Double derp* Here's the story. I was out to meet Jian Ming's cousin for the first time, its cool to meet new guys especially over gaming (no I am not gay). Arranged for a meeting at Taylor's Canadian Pre-U building. He was in the dance room. The minute I walked in, I feel some spider sense tingling. The music beats were making my body shake. I was like damn, those dancers are popping real good.

(in case I forgot to mention, the dance I meant was popping and bboys).

And and, those people there are so awesome. Meeting some of them there, and we feel like old friends already. I will definitely hangout over there often.

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I remember a trip from Bukit Gasing, I caught this shot.

Imba much?

On a nostalgic note, I miss my baby in US.

Come back soon, a loving hug and kiss awaits. From me to you.

Yours truly,

- josh ♥ babyjoey ~

Soul Relievo'

How long has it been, since Shadows of Life vanished from existence?
Any blog stalkers of mine would know what my Shadows of Life mean.

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But seriously, no matter how much one has changed, a fragment of the past always lies deep within the soul awaiting for the next calling.

The soul
Be it human or creature,
How long more will it lay dormant, no living could fathom.
But it's a soul of vengeance, a vengeful spirit.
A shell I am,
The shell that houses souls that screams like a thousand banshees.

Till then, a benign spirit sheaths the face.
May the cape draping behind never uncloaks the reign of terror
Revealing the evil eye.
Blinking sideways.
I rest my case.

Dwelling in the void between life and death
The boundaries narrow itself.
Nowhere to thread, I shunned the world,
As I see the walls of my reality closing upon me.

No fire burns my will,
No lightning strikes my strength
No danger shreds my soul,
The road not taken,
The journey no other walks,
That is only what I yearn for.

Bestowing power, may Thy bidding be done upon the sanction of great power.

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Joey ~

Backtrack.

Back from the physical world, enter the virtual.

Many updates waiting in line, thus it shall be done. Procrastination is the key to self-destruction.

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Let's begin with college. So yeah I've ended up at Taylor's Lakeside Campus doing American Degree Transfer Program, majoring in Mass Communications. Made a bunch of new friends, and they're awesome people. To sum it up: good surroundings, good friends, good environment, good restaurants, fits pretty much every attribute requirement on my list.

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Oh yeah, I have my own car now, but it's some retarded car. Kia Rio 1.5. 95% of you reading this will not have any freakin idea what car is that, which is the whole point of it being retarded. But I'm optimistic. I'll just say it's at least better than any proton.

Lol whut.


Entering into exactly 1 month since I started my course, I can rest assured that ADP really works out for me. (for now)

2 weeks ago, and 4 days ago i think, Baby came over! Forgive me if I went hyper.

Fun begins in Jusco's fitting room when I was buying new jeans.






Trying to look awesome, but failing badly.


TEEHEE


PDA in Pyramids' 4th floor toilet for the disabled. The rest, fill in the blanks. To those who don't know what PDA means, watch more Peter Chao.
(I chose not to write 'disabled toilet' because it would sound so wrong in so many levels).

2 days ago, I went to retrieve my SPM results, also known as Super Professional Mentality results. A series of unexpected things happened: I expected 3A's, I had 4. I expected 4 fails, but I got 1. Personally, I think this is an achievement, considering somebody who doesn't study, sleeps in 8 classes out of 10, and doing anything else but study. Don't get me wrong I ain't bragging, just glad that I achieved my requirements to move on. Yes just requirements.

The following shows my results.

Bahasa Melayu: B

Bahasa English: A-

Mathematics : A-

Moral : A

Physics : B

Chemistry : C+

Biology : D

Add Maths : E

Sejarah : G

EST : A+

Chronologically arranged is it not? Damn it just gets me wondering how are you managing to handle academics. Once again, if you have been reading my blog, you would acknowledge how much I despise academics and how much I sleep through every class. Nevertheless, personally I feel glad much for being able to pull off with these grades. I do know stronger academically inclined people getting lesser A's than me, but I won't refer any names. Nothing for you Straight A's people to look at, go eat your chemistry or calculus books thank you very much, and being able to shit out all the information onto a piece of paper.

Also, a huge congratulations to my baby for getting 9A's and 1B for her results. You make me so proud sweetheart. Isn't it not surprising that chinese always lets you down? =)

In a fitting room, where everything fits, and nothing else matters.

Fuck macbook seriously, keeps displaying HTML Tags error, and my font colours disappear. Fuck you Mac.

Yours truly,

- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Ushering the new year, with the death of a relative.

Ironically, I didn't even know that this year represents the lunar year. To those unmindful of this event, its a year that comes by once every four years, where February has 29 days. Matters much anyway?

Speakin of ushering the new year in, I'm really shitting much on this. My grandfather passed away on the 29th of January 2011. I was told that if a relative passes away before Chinese New Year, there will be no celebration of any sort, worst of all, no ang-pau giving. Besides that, I heard there will be no birthday celebration after the death of the relative for 3 years etc etc. Chinese traditions, I do not heed. Seriously I despise superstitions and traditions. But for the record, this is the first relative to pass away during 18 years of my life on earth.

My family tree was intact, with both grandfathers and grandmothers still alive (till 29th January of course), even a great-grandmother. So having one left the tree, this officially breaks the combo. R.I.P.

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Screw sadness, life's too short for any regrets.

It takes more strength to move on than to grieve with sadness, a man's gotta gather what's left of his manliness to pick himself up. This year ain't suppose to be a sad year, it's my college year, my happy year, my year that I don't have go back to secondary school forever.

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1 more day to the beginning of a new life. February 10 is where and when I'd take my first step into the larger world. Taylor's Lakeside Campus, I'm gonna make sure I have a hellova lifetime there.


For your entertainment, or not.


Plants vs. Zombies - Pool Level/Daytime in the Backyard, performed by yours truly. Crappy results of spontaneous playing.

Yours truly(again),
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Love ain't getting us nowhere, its everywhere.

Why so serious?

Had a nice time playing at baby's house yesterday. Happy anniversary again bii, 1 year past so fast, like wind.

Argh gotta go back secondary school to screw some teachers and birthday bash some birthday girl. KThxBaiTataCULater.

"Girl you really got me bad"
Misery - Maroon 5 / Mike Thompkins

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

15/01/2010

It was long, it was awaited, it's finally here.

Happy anniversary baby love..


From our first date,
with much memories,




Till today still going on strong. I love you baby. May we have many more years to come together as a couple.

Thanks for loving me for 365 days so far babe. You know I freakin appreciate it.

"You set my soul free, living with pure love, no more the soul searcher" - Josh.

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Baby Joey ~

Many happy returns of yours truly.

Last Friday, I had a blast of the best birthday ever.


It all began as a conmanship situation. A friend invited me to go pyramid for RedBox. Ok so yeah I went, but was greeted with a wondervelous surprise. Baby was at the pyramid entrance standing there with 2 friends. They came all the way from Seremban to celebrate my birthday. God dammit I swear I felt my eyes' moist.

So me, Baby Joey, Ken Fei, Kelvin, decided on a random lunch. McDonalds. Random much for a birthday meal, but I love the glorious Chicken McDeluxe so much, I was happy enough.

Later Ken Fei and Kelvin went to shop for their own stuff, while baby and me went on our own journey. But I went for something I never tasted before.

Ireland potato, looks good, smells good, taste..not so good. Yeah please keep that in mind.

Then on we went to do our stuff *blablabla..

Time flew pretty fast for that day, yeah I ain't surprised. Almost time to leave, we met back together on burger king floor, Ken Fei wanted to buy a necklace or earrings for somebody. Or was it.. Anyway,


Ken Fei ^.
Took a few candid shots of baby, she looks best in candid, but when it comes to posing, we both suck at it.


Yes I know, we both look like crap, because we aren't made for cameras. Forgive my hair, it's uncut for 1½ month. Despite that, thank you guys so much for the time you've spent for me today. It's been so different for the past 5 years in secondary school, a whole new feeling. Alright no getting emotional here so moving on---

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Presentsss..


Yep remember a black pillow baby was holding? Yes it's my baby subby, subby for substitute. Wahaha.




And a package, contents:

That was so damn sweet, I forgot to use the tissue. Click to enlarge.

Yes baby loves chocolates, so do I. ♥

This is baby's late christmas gift, small but nice. Its fuji apple, first time seeing this flavour. Rarity 100 indeed.

Now for my second gift:

Inspector Gadget? nah.

It's a really cool metallic watch, that autosets the time, date, and whatever you can think of. If you travel to a different time zone, the watch adjusts itself to the correct time, date, and daylight saving if necessary. Sweet. Oh did I mention 200m of water resistance? Coincidentally its in the picture above, yes coincidentally. Now I feel professional.

Thank you..parents.

And a second round of thanks to those who wished me on facebook. Well if you're reading this, you're getting a second thank you personally from me.



"Many happy returns of the day", I wish they were all happy, just wished. - Josh.


Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

With a different feel..

In my room, lights out, mac on, I gotta do this more often.

Stepped into the past once more.. I hadn't done this for quite some time. I changed my motto after all, it ain't Shadows of Life no more, it's Music Feeds the Soul.

Yet another twist came in, an unexpected opportunity. To be part of Kenshido. I'll elaborate on that later.

The journey of 5 years in secondary school hence halted. For Good. It seemed so surreal, I am neither happy nor sad, weird things coming out from an artistic person. But look, academics, I don't wish to be part of it. Time and again reality kicks me in the ass and says Josh, you build your own future. Guess what, it's in progress.

Honestly I was in over my head about college, a music college, UCSI awaited my future. But... nonetheless I'm determined to strive for the best with my American Degree Programme. Besides my studies now, I look forward to so many more things. More cuppa sessions maybe? Or just a little jamming with them music freaks? I really am looking forward to stuff I never had done in high school. This nostalgic events can really hit the rock bottom of me.

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Kenshido resurfaced a long sunken determination of my attribute; is to not let anything stop you from achieving your dreams. Frankly speaking, my visions of the future are clouded. But one thing's for sure, it either is gonna rock my life to the max, or it's gonna pull my left leg down to hell.

Dreams are like constellations, they take the form of many insignificant imaginations, and what's lovely about it, it's free.

Ultimately, it can become a nightmare if something went out of hand.

I'm taking a huge risk, parents despise the idea. But hey look, I'm a risk taker. And that's what makes life interesting for me.

Secretly I hope everything works out. I'll leave the rest to God.

Love me not for me trying to be something I'm not, love me because I'm me. And I just believed you failed your God-bestowed duty. May God bless your soul. - Josh von Alejandro.

"There are many fishes in the sea, but that doesn't mean all of them are worthy of me, but you came."

Your's truly,

- Josh ♥ Joey ~

P/S I don't know wtf is wrong with the HTML it keeps saying my tag is not allowed, thus removing my coloured fonts. Fuck Blogspot.

Tis' ain't the season to be jolly.

How many of you out there are celebrating christmas with such joy and happiness? Exchanging presents, wishing each other, giving hugs and kisses with your loved ones.


My christmas of 2010 is pure bullshit.

Me an underdog in the society as termed by many, I suffer in silence in the shadows of community, how many people are unhappy during christmas I ask you?

I spent christmas shovelling and cleaning the grave of my elder brother Daniel with the whole family. I went home in a car filled with scoldings and shit. I was bombarded with a string of crap by my parents, and here's the best part, I didn't initiate anything.

I'm sick and tired of you bossin me around. SPM is over, I got through it, I ENTERED COLLEGE. And you're here to critique that I haven't met your standards?

YES I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU 'FATHER'.

You know I'm weak in my academical studies, you know I shit in it. I gathered up enough determination and perseverance to get it through SPM, and I don't hear a single shit of any encouragement or a little 'well done' pat behind the back. Instead you fuck me up with 'Who call you never spend time to study? You study better can get scholarship and we don't have to spend money on you. Show some gratitude la, you're a very ungrateful person from birth.'.. You know how fucked up is that? You can't take me as being a different person from other peoples' sons?

I've got news for you, I grew up with you scolding my head off before my cranium was even constructed, it's now filled with unnecessary bile from your spit. I'm doing well without your 'advice', so kthxbai and stfu. Every crap from you from young is how u dislike my academics, and how I suck at it. Guess what, it's my life, so stop acting that you care, I do well without it.

I'm artistic, you're a workaholic. You'll NEVER enter my world even if you tried. I opened doors for you, you shut them off with your shallow perspective mindset. Nuff elaborating, my mouth and fingers are tired of saying how far-off you are and you dare claim you are.

I've got something stored for you, and if it prospers, I'll shove it in your face and say: You called me to do whatever I want and see if I can live without you? Here's the shit back in your face.

I'm going college soon, how long do you wanna keep this up? I'm growing, why are you stunted? Is age catching up faster than the generation? Or your mind is going through retardation as your age advances huh?


"God made each of us individually special, you can get out of my life if you think I'm not". - Josh von Alejandro

Thanks for being with me all the way baby ♥.

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Joey ~

Fresh starts.

SPM is history. Nuff said about that. The trick is, if you want something to come faster, don't think about it. It's a reverse psychology that has accompanied me throughout my years in high school.

I'm still finding it difficult to digest the fact that I don't have to put on my school uniform anymore for the rest of my life. It's a bittersweet moment to have, walking out of the school gate after the last paper was over. There weren't screams of joy like there used to for PMR or UPSR, everybody's an adult now. I stood to enjoy the serene moment for a second or two at the main gate. And look, life goes on.

Moving on, the future.

I see promising courses affording me to enhance my full potential towards music. UCSI, AICM, Monash. My primary target however is UCSI. Offering me foundation for my music, and 3 years bacholar ahead. Promising indeed.

Many youtube performers inspired me much; Mike Thompkins, Sam Tsui, many more, doing covers of songs. It's pretty much related to my future career as closely as it's related to them in studios. Maybe a little difference, with much humility, I don't sing.

Current equipments needed, an empty room, modulator, microphone, laptop, desktop (yes, 2 computers), good wiring system, Hi-Fi playbacks, keyboard. Yamaha equipment seems to be prospective, might give it a shot.

Ye know, lack of blogging can encourage brain blocks.

2nd option, american degree program.

Past is gone, future is coming, can u be my present?

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Joeyy ~

Post Resurrection.

Resurrected post: Terrace Tranced.

This is a post, from a broken hearted,
No silent prayer for the faith departed
And I ain't gonna be just a face in the shadows,
You're never hear my voice, but I'm screaming out loud.

It's my life.


Corny, but my link already says it all.

My recent post was a special dedication, so shall this one be, just another scripture be written in black and white, only in this case, it's over the proxy servers.

Many a time I hath sensed this, but why wasn't I sure.
I use to be able to feel things before they happen,
I know I'm wearing spectacles,
But it seems I'm growing blind to notice,
I am losing my touch.

I'm suppose to type this in paragraphs,
but I've conveyed most of my message to you in instant messaging form.
The times we had, our faith is sealed.
But no more, time itself was revealed.
Profound it must seem,
My cranium is bursting,
Not for the loss of words,
but painful flashbacks presumed forgotten.

Once upon a time it was,
not many hath known our past,
It's our dirty little secret,
But being dirty has it's price to pay.
Delighted,
but never lasted.
I used to know you like the back of my hand,
now it's darker than midnight.

My deepest message, convey to you, I hath not.
only time will tell.
Time is relevant,
Stripped from reality I was,
I feel the serenity of silence.
Reality has a mind of it's own,
knocking back sense into me,
I feel the surge with a cocktail of emotions.

As it is said, my message to you hath been acknowledged by you.
I've been finding ways to convey it to you,
I've threaded lightly,
Still I don't know how,
Because I don't know you anymore..
Sought guidance,
I use to think I was the source of it,
Nevertheless it is done.
A weight off my load.

People change,
for the better or for the worse.
Trust in my command,
thy path is cleared.
Let there be light,
for light hath been bestowed by the One.

Hence I shalt only be able to ponder,
over your last message to me
in the instant messaging window.


A dedicated post, ending with the origin to my blog. Shadows Of LIfe.

Yes SH.

"My heart is like an open highway"
It's my life - Bon Jovi

Yours truly,
- Jw²~

Let's put a pin in it.

Entering into the month of November, I look back to see how fast time flew. I flashbacked the week I found myself so busy preparing for prom, intensive courses and what not, all over in a flash.

Picture says it all. Yes I'm ecstatic. I got my license in less than 5 days after the driving exam.

One thing I really looked forward to, was the prom. It wasn't the prom, it was the performance. I didn't sign up for prom for 3 reasons:

1. It's RM88 for a budget room.
2. It's before SPM. Timing is so out.
3. They mentioned no outsiders allowed, immediately I said forget it. (You should know why)


Anyway I signed up for performance just to get a glimpse of the interior. Venue was Empire Hotel. Performance was alright. Can't believe it's over. I got so bonded to my band.

I'm gonna miss all the practices held in the bilik pengawas, my house, and the fellowship.

Sure miss playing with great people like you, we make up ColdSwift a.k.a. SwiftPlay.

From left to right: Kat Jin-Ji, Joshua Jarret Ganesan, Diane Sim, Leon Wee, Joshua Wong, Esther Chow.




In order,
Pianist - Kat Jin-Ji
Violinists - Diane Sim, Esther Chow, Leon Wee
Bassist - Joshua Wong
Drums - Joshua Jarret Ganesan.

Shit quality, mics didn't pick up the violins clearly.. But it's a rep. I'm waiting for a clearer quality, will upload when I have it.

Another priority complete. I can't seem to blog like how I used to few months back.. Maybe it's because I indeed have discovered my purpose. But I don't wish to drift away from that realm, I wish to continue inspiring people with my posts like I used to. Guess Imma have to wait till after SPM and see how the feel comes back to me then.

Studying moral nilais. I'm betting my 5 credits on the line.


What's so difficult with academics? Is my right brain just bigger or my left brain's just underdeveloped? - Josh von Alejandro.


Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Continued from previous post.

I ♥ you Baby Joey.

An auspicious day celebration.

This week has been a hassle for me. Scheduled is filled with priorities. Focus SPM programme in my school for 1 whole week, not to mention prom approaching in 2 more days.

Basically I have less than a month to rot before SPM comes..and I hope to rot in a good way.

2 days ago, I celebrated baby's birthday at a Jusco. Raymond, Yi Hong, and Jane Foo accompanied us for GreenBox(cousin of RedBox) karaoke session. For the first time in a long time I released myself with a blast with the microphone. The feeling was sensational.

But here's my baby and the 2 others performing a song which won them 2nd place in their school competition.




Later, operation Surprise initiated, Me and Raymond and Yi Hong went out of GreenBox for a moment. We entered the room again with candles-lit Big Apple Doughnuts. (a substitute for a cake, budget indeed).

Then the music in the room turned off, and started playing Happy Birthday. The look on baby's face was priceless. Singing happy birthday, making her wishes, blowing off the candles. Typical progression of a birthday proceeded.





Raymond isn't a very good photographer, his hand keeps shaking. Epic. Better photos will be obtained soon from other cameras. Stay tuned.


Moving on, went to see The Other Guys at GSC. Action + comedy = crackpot laughing. Jane went home after GreenBox. Movie wasn't really that good, but nobody cared. With a few more hours to spend, we went for bowling and had late lunch.

After Yi Hong and Raymond left, it was me and babe left. Forgot to buy baby her ice cream.
Spent what was left of our quality time together left, baby's father fetched me home. How thoughtful.

Happy birthday once again baby, love to have spent it together with you ♥

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~