Music Feeds the Soul

17 months, what?

2011-06-15T23:15:00.007+08:00

Yes, it's been 17 months. A blissful 17 months.

Hope you're having fun at NS baby. I've been missing you. Meanwhile since you can't read this, imma crap some stuff.

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You brought colour into my life, you never fail to make me smile (even though sometimes I act oblivious to it). You're what every man wants, needs, and provide. Love. 17 months sweep by like a breeze. I smile when I think bout our first touch, hug, and kiss. You're perfect in the eyes of every lover. You're beautiful, you're sexy, you're the best thing that ever happened in my life, and you always will be. You're the little dime I found sitting lonely on the pavement, and I'm gonna take care of it because you're my lucky dime.

I'm so glad our love is true,

everlasting.

"I love you long time so you know the meaning."
I Just Can't Get Enough - Black Eyed Peas

Yours truly,

- josh ♥ babyjoey ~

A touch of nature.

2011-06-11T12:11:00.010+08:00

Ok it's been seriously a while since my last update. Semester 2 of ADP was really much harder then Semester 1. But no matter, I still love it.

I will not post chronologically, but I'll announce what I can.

Derp.

I recently found a new passion. Dancing! *Double derp* Here's the story. I was out to meet Jian Ming's cousin for the first time, its cool to meet new guys especially over gaming (no I am not gay). Arranged for a meeting at Taylor's Canadian Pre-U building. He was in the dance room. The minute I walked in, I feel some spider sense tingling. The music beats were making my body shake. I was like damn, those dancers are popping real good.

(in case I forgot to mention, the dance I meant was popping and bboys).

And and, those people there are so awesome. Meeting some of them there, and we feel like old friends already. I will definitely hangout over there often.

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I remember a trip from Bukit Gasing, I caught this shot.

Imba much?

On a nostalgic note, I miss my baby in US.

Come back soon, a loving hug and kiss awaits. From me to you.

Yours truly,

- josh ♥ babyjoey ~

Soul Relievo'

2011-04-16T01:03:00.011+08:00

How long has it been, since Shadows of Life vanished from existence?
Any blog stalkers of mine would know what my Shadows of Life mean.

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But seriously, no matter how much one has changed, a fragment of the past always lies deep within the soul awaiting for the next calling.

The soul
Be it human or creature,
How long more will it lay dormant, no living could fathom.
But it's a soul of vengeance, a vengeful spirit.
A shell I am,
The shell that houses souls that screams like a thousand banshees.

Till then, a benign spirit sheaths the face.
May the cape draping behind never uncloaks the reign of terror
Revealing the evil eye.
Blinking sideways.
I rest my case.

Dwelling in the void between life and death
The boundaries narrow itself.
Nowhere to thread, I shunned the world,
As I see the walls of my reality closing upon me.

No fire burns my will,
No lightning strikes my strength
No danger shreds my soul,
The road not taken,
The journey no other walks,
That is only what I yearn for.

Bestowing power, may Thy bidding be done upon the sanction of great power.

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Joey ~

Backtrack.

2011-03-23T23:28:00.013+08:00

Back from the physical world, enter the virtual.

Many updates waiting in line, thus it shall be done. Procrastination is the key to self-destruction.

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Let's begin with college. So yeah I've ended up at Taylor's Lakeside Campus doing American Degree Transfer Program, majoring in Mass Communications. Made a bunch of new friends, and they're awesome people. To sum it up: good surroundings, good friends, good environment, good restaurants, fits pretty much every attribute requirement on my list.

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Oh yeah, I have my own car now, but it's some retarded car. Kia Rio 1.5. 95% of you reading this will not have any freakin idea what car is that, which is the whole point of it being retarded. But I'm optimistic. I'll just say it's at least better than any proton.

Lol whut.

Entering into exactly 1 month since I started my course, I can rest assured that ADP really works out for me. (for now)

2 weeks ago, and 4 days ago i think, Baby came over! Forgive me if I went hyper.

Fun begins in Jusco's fitting room when I was buying new jeans.

Trying to look awesome, but failing badly.

TEEHEE

PDA in Pyramids' 4th floor toilet for the disabled. The rest, fill in the blanks. To those who don't know what PDA means, watch more Peter Chao.
(I chose not to write 'disabled toilet' because it would sound so wrong in so many levels).

2 days ago, I went to retrieve my SPM results, also known as Super Professional Mentality results. A series of unexpected things happened: I expected 3A's, I had 4. I expected 4 fails, but I got 1. Personally, I think this is an achievement, considering somebody who doesn't study, sleeps in 8 classes out of 10, and doing anything else but study. Don't get me wrong I ain't bragging, just glad that I achieved my requirements to move on. Yes just requirements.

The following shows my results.

Bahasa Melayu: B

Bahasa English: A-

Mathematics : A-

Moral : A

Physics : B

Chemistry : C+

Biology : D

Add Maths : E

Sejarah : G

EST : A+

Chronologically arranged is it not? Damn it just gets me wondering how are you managing to handle academics. Once again, if you have been reading my blog, you would acknowledge how much I despise academics and how much I sleep through every class. Nevertheless, personally I feel glad much for being able to pull off with these grades. I do know stronger academically inclined people getting lesser A's than me, but I won't refer any names. Nothing for you Straight A's people to look at, go eat your chemistry or calculus books thank you very much, and being able to shit out all the information onto a piece of paper.

Also, a huge congratulations to my baby for getting 9A's and 1B for her results. You make me so proud sweetheart. Isn't it not surprising that chinese always lets you down? =)

In a fitting room, where everything fits, and nothing else matters.

Fuck macbook seriously, keeps displaying HTML Tags error, and my font colours disappear. Fuck you Mac.

Yours truly,

- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Ushering the new year, with the death of a relative.

2011-02-05T14:55:00.003+08:00

Ironically, I didn't even know that this year represents the lunar year. To those unmindful of this event, its a year that comes by once every four years, where February has 29 days. Matters much anyway?

Speakin of ushering the new year in, I'm really shitting much on this. My grandfather passed away on the 29th of January 2011. I was told that if a relative passes away before Chinese New Year, there will be no celebration of any sort, worst of all, no ang-pau giving. Besides that, I heard there will be no birthday celebration after the death of the relative for 3 years etc etc. Chinese traditions, I do not heed. Seriously I despise superstitions and traditions. But for the record, this is the first relative to pass away during 18 years of my life on earth.

My family tree was intact, with both grandfathers and grandmothers still alive (till 29th January of course), even a great-grandmother. So having one left the tree, this officially breaks the combo. R.I.P.

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Screw sadness, life's too short for any regrets.

It takes more strength to move on than to grieve with sadness, a man's gotta gather what's left of his manliness to pick himself up. This year ain't suppose to be a sad year, it's my college year, my happy year, my year that I don't have go back to secondary school forever.

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1 more day to the beginning of a new life. February 10 is where and when I'd take my first step into the larger world. Taylor's Lakeside Campus, I'm gonna make sure I have a hellova lifetime there.

For your entertainment, or not.

Plants vs. Zombies - Pool Level/Daytime in the Backyard, performed by yours truly. Crappy results of spontaneous playing.

Yours truly(again),
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Love ain't getting us nowhere, its everywhere.

2011-01-21T12:15:00.005+08:00

Why so serious?

Had a nice time playing at baby's house yesterday. Happy anniversary again bii, 1 year past so fast, like wind.

Argh gotta go back secondary school to screw some teachers and birthday bash some birthday girl. KThxBaiTataCULater.

"Girl you really got me bad"
Misery - Maroon 5 / Mike Thompkins

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

15/01/2010

2011-01-15T00:53:00.009+08:00

It was long, it was awaited, it's finally here.

Happy anniversary baby love..

From our first date,
with much memories,

Till today still going on strong. I love you baby. May we have many more years to come together as a couple.

Thanks for loving me for 365 days so far babe. You know I freakin appreciate it.

"You set my soul free, living with pure love, no more the soul searcher" - Josh.

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Baby Joey ~

Many happy returns of yours truly.

2011-01-14T21:14:00.010+08:00

Last Friday, I had a blast of the best birthday ever.

It all began as a conmanship situation. A friend invited me to go pyramid for RedBox. Ok so yeah I went, but was greeted with a wondervelous surprise. Baby was at the pyramid entrance standing there with 2 friends. They came all the way from Seremban to celebrate my birthday. God dammit I swear I felt my eyes' moist.

So me, Baby Joey, Ken Fei, Kelvin, decided on a random lunch. McDonalds. Random much for a birthday meal, but I love the glorious Chicken McDeluxe so much, I was happy enough.

Later Ken Fei and Kelvin went to shop for their own stuff, while baby and me went on our own journey. But I went for something I never tasted before.

Ireland potato, looks good, smells good, taste..not so good. Yeah please keep that in mind.

Then on we went to do our stuff *blablabla..

Time flew pretty fast for that day, yeah I ain't surprised. Almost time to leave, we met back together on burger king floor, Ken Fei wanted to buy a necklace or earrings for somebody. Or was it.. Anyway,

Ken Fei ^.
Took a few candid shots of baby, she looks best in candid, but when it comes to posing, we both suck at it.

Yes I know, we both look like crap, because we aren't made for cameras. Forgive my hair, it's uncut for 1½ month. Despite that, thank you guys so much for the time you've spent for me today. It's been so different for the past 5 years in secondary school, a whole new feeling. Alright no getting emotional here so moving on---

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Presentsss..

Yep remember a black pillow baby was holding? Yes it's my baby subby, subby for substitute. Wahaha.

And a package, contents:

That was so damn sweet, I forgot to use the tissue. Click to enlarge.

Yes baby loves chocolates, so do I. ♥

This is baby's late christmas gift, small but nice. Its fuji apple, first time seeing this flavour. Rarity 100 indeed.

Now for my second gift:

Inspector Gadget? nah.

It's a really cool metallic watch, that autosets the time, date, and whatever you can think of. If you travel to a different time zone, the watch adjusts itself to the correct time, date, and daylight saving if necessary. Sweet. Oh did I mention 200m of water resistance? Coincidentally its in the picture above, yes coincidentally. Now I feel professional.

Thank you..parents.

And a second round of thanks to those who wished me on facebook. Well if you're reading this, you're getting a second thank you personally from me.

"Many happy returns of the day", I wish they were all happy, just wished. - Josh.

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

With a different feel..

2011-01-05T02:22:00.005+08:00

In my room, lights out, mac on, I gotta do this more often.

Stepped into the past once more.. I hadn't done this for quite some time. I changed my motto after all, it ain't Shadows of Life no more, it's Music Feeds the Soul.

Yet another twist came in, an unexpected opportunity. To be part of Kenshido. I'll elaborate on that later.

The journey of 5 years in secondary school hence halted. For Good. It seemed so surreal, I am neither happy nor sad, weird things coming out from an artistic person. But look, academics, I don't wish to be part of it. Time and again reality kicks me in the ass and says Josh, you build your own future. Guess what, it's in progress.

Honestly I was in over my head about college, a music college, UCSI awaited my future. But... nonetheless I'm determined to strive for the best with my American Degree Programme. Besides my studies now, I look forward to so many more things. More cuppa sessions maybe? Or just a little jamming with them music freaks? I really am looking forward to stuff I never had done in high school. This nostalgic events can really hit the rock bottom of me.

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Kenshido resurfaced a long sunken determination of my attribute; is to not let anything stop you from achieving your dreams. Frankly speaking, my visions of the future are clouded. But one thing's for sure, it either is gonna rock my life to the max, or it's gonna pull my left leg down to hell.

Dreams are like constellations, they take the form of many insignificant imaginations, and what's lovely about it, it's free.

Ultimately, it can become a nightmare if something went out of hand.

I'm taking a huge risk, parents despise the idea. But hey look, I'm a risk taker. And that's what makes life interesting for me.

Secretly I hope everything works out. I'll leave the rest to God.

Love me not for me trying to be something I'm not, love me because I'm me. And I just believed you failed your God-bestowed duty. May God bless your soul. - Josh von Alejandro.

"There are many fishes in the sea, but that doesn't mean all of them are worthy of me, but you came."

Your's truly,

- Josh ♥ Joey ~

P/S I don't know wtf is wrong with the HTML it keeps saying my tag is not allowed, thus removing my coloured fonts. Fuck Blogspot.

Tis' ain't the season to be jolly.

2010-12-26T00:16:00.004+08:00

How many of you out there are celebrating christmas with such joy and happiness? Exchanging presents, wishing each other, giving hugs and kisses with your loved ones.

My christmas of 2010 is pure bullshit.

Me an underdog in the society as termed by many, I suffer in silence in the shadows of community, how many people are unhappy during christmas I ask you?

I spent christmas shovelling and cleaning the grave of my elder brother Daniel with the whole family. I went home in a car filled with scoldings and shit. I was bombarded with a string of crap by my parents, and here's the best part, I didn't initiate anything.

I'm sick and tired of you bossin me around. SPM is over, I got through it, I ENTERED COLLEGE. And you're here to critique that I haven't met your standards?

YES I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU 'FATHER'.

You know I'm weak in my academical studies, you know I shit in it. I gathered up enough determination and perseverance to get it through SPM, and I don't hear a single shit of any encouragement or a little 'well done' pat behind the back. Instead you fuck me up with 'Who call you never spend time to study? You study better can get scholarship and we don't have to spend money on you. Show some gratitude la, you're a very ungrateful person from birth.'.. You know how fucked up is that? You can't take me as being a different person from other peoples' sons?

I've got news for you, I grew up with you scolding my head off before my cranium was even constructed, it's now filled with unnecessary bile from your spit. I'm doing well without your 'advice', so kthxbai and stfu. Every crap from you from young is how u dislike my academics, and how I suck at it. Guess what, it's my life, so stop acting that you care, I do well without it.

I'm artistic, you're a workaholic. You'll NEVER enter my world even if you tried. I opened doors for you, you shut them off with your shallow perspective mindset. Nuff elaborating, my mouth and fingers are tired of saying how far-off you are and you dare claim you are.

I've got something stored for you, and if it prospers, I'll shove it in your face and say: You called me to do whatever I want and see if I can live without you? Here's the shit back in your face.

I'm going college soon, how long do you wanna keep this up? I'm growing, why are you stunted? Is age catching up faster than the generation? Or your mind is going through retardation as your age advances huh?

"God made each of us individually special, you can get out of my life if you think I'm not". - Josh von Alejandro

Thanks for being with me all the way baby ♥.

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Joey ~

Fresh starts.

2010-12-17T21:14:00.002+08:00

SPM is history. Nuff said about that. The trick is, if you want something to come faster, don't think about it. It's a reverse psychology that has accompanied me throughout my years in high school.

I'm still finding it difficult to digest the fact that I don't have to put on my school uniform anymore for the rest of my life. It's a bittersweet moment to have, walking out of the school gate after the last paper was over. There weren't screams of joy like there used to for PMR or UPSR, everybody's an adult now. I stood to enjoy the serene moment for a second or two at the main gate. And look, life goes on.

Moving on, the future.

I see promising courses affording me to enhance my full potential towards music. UCSI, AICM, Monash. My primary target however is UCSI. Offering me foundation for my music, and 3 years bacholar ahead. Promising indeed.

Many youtube performers inspired me much; Mike Thompkins, Sam Tsui, many more, doing covers of songs. It's pretty much related to my future career as closely as it's related to them in studios. Maybe a little difference, with much humility, I don't sing.

Current equipments needed, an empty room, modulator, microphone, laptop, desktop (yes, 2 computers), good wiring system, Hi-Fi playbacks, keyboard. Yamaha equipment seems to be prospective, might give it a shot.

Ye know, lack of blogging can encourage brain blocks.

2nd option, american degree program.

Past is gone, future is coming, can u be my present?

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Joeyy ~

Post Resurrection.

2010-11-17T23:09:00.002+08:00

Resurrected post: Terrace Tranced.

This is a post, from a broken hearted,
No silent prayer for the faith departed
And I ain't gonna be just a face in the shadows,
You're never hear my voice, but I'm screaming out loud.

It's my life.

Corny, but my link already says it all.

My recent post was a special dedication, so shall this one be, just another scripture be written in black and white, only in this case, it's over the proxy servers.

Many a time I hath sensed this, but why wasn't I sure.
I use to be able to feel things before they happen,
I know I'm wearing spectacles,
But it seems I'm growing blind to notice,
I am losing my touch.

I'm suppose to type this in paragraphs,
but I've conveyed most of my message to you in instant messaging form.
The times we had, our faith is sealed.
But no more, time itself was revealed.
Profound it must seem,
My cranium is bursting,
Not for the loss of words,
but painful flashbacks presumed forgotten.

Once upon a time it was,
not many hath known our past,
It's our dirty little secret,
But being dirty has it's price to pay.
Delighted,
but never lasted.
I used to know you like the back of my hand,
now it's darker than midnight.

My deepest message, convey to you, I hath not.
only time will tell.
Time is relevant,
Stripped from reality I was,
I feel the serenity of silence.
Reality has a mind of it's own,
knocking back sense into me,
I feel the surge with a cocktail of emotions.

As it is said, my message to you hath been acknowledged by you.
I've been finding ways to convey it to you,
I've threaded lightly,
Still I don't know how,
Because I don't know you anymore..
Sought guidance,
I use to think I was the source of it,
Nevertheless it is done.
A weight off my load.

People change,
for the better or for the worse.
Trust in my command,
thy path is cleared.
Let there be light,
for light hath been bestowed by the One.

Hence I shalt only be able to ponder,
over your last message to me
in the instant messaging window.

A dedicated post, ending with the origin to my blog. Shadows Of LIfe.

Yes SH.

"My heart is like an open highway"
It's my life - Bon Jovi

Yours truly,
- Jw²~

Let's put a pin in it.

2010-11-06T02:06:00.007+08:00

Entering into the month of November, I look back to see how fast time flew. I flashbacked the week I found myself so busy preparing for prom, intensive courses and what not, all over in a flash.

Picture says it all. Yes I'm ecstatic. I got my license in less than 5 days after the driving exam.

One thing I really looked forward to, was the prom. It wasn't the prom, it was the performance. I didn't sign up for prom for 3 reasons:

1. It's RM88 for a budget room.
2. It's before SPM. Timing is so out.
3. They mentioned no outsiders allowed, immediately I said forget it. (You should know why)

Anyway I signed up for performance just to get a glimpse of the interior. Venue was Empire Hotel. Performance was alright. Can't believe it's over. I got so bonded to my band.

I'm gonna miss all the practices held in the bilik pengawas, my house, and the fellowship.

Sure miss playing with great people like you, we make up ColdSwift a.k.a. SwiftPlay.

From left to right: Kat Jin-Ji, Joshua Jarret Ganesan, Diane Sim, Leon Wee, Joshua Wong, Esther Chow.

In order,
Pianist - Kat Jin-Ji
Violinists - Diane Sim, Esther Chow, Leon Wee
Bassist - Joshua Wong
Drums - Joshua Jarret Ganesan.

Shit quality, mics didn't pick up the violins clearly.. But it's a rep. I'm waiting for a clearer quality, will upload when I have it.

Another priority complete. I can't seem to blog like how I used to few months back.. Maybe it's because I indeed have discovered my purpose. But I don't wish to drift away from that realm, I wish to continue inspiring people with my posts like I used to. Guess Imma have to wait till after SPM and see how the feel comes back to me then.

Studying moral nilais. I'm betting my 5 credits on the line.

What's so difficult with academics? Is my right brain just bigger or my left brain's just underdeveloped? - Josh von Alejandro.

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Continued from previous post.

2010-10-30T14:43:00.003+08:00

I ♥ you Baby Joey.

An auspicious day celebration.

2010-10-28T21:14:00.005+08:00

This week has been a hassle for me. Scheduled is filled with priorities. Focus SPM programme in my school for 1 whole week, not to mention prom approaching in 2 more days.

Basically I have less than a month to rot before SPM comes..and I hope to rot in a good way.

2 days ago, I celebrated baby's birthday at a Jusco. Raymond, Yi Hong, and Jane Foo accompanied us for GreenBox(cousin of RedBox) karaoke session. For the first time in a long time I released myself with a blast with the microphone. The feeling was sensational.

But here's my baby and the 2 others performing a song which won them 2nd place in their school competition.

Later, operation Surprise initiated, Me and Raymond and Yi Hong went out of GreenBox for a moment. We entered the room again with candles-lit Big Apple Doughnuts. (a substitute for a cake, budget indeed).

Then the music in the room turned off, and started playing Happy Birthday. The look on baby's face was priceless. Singing happy birthday, making her wishes, blowing off the candles. Typical progression of a birthday proceeded.

Raymond isn't a very good photographer, his hand keeps shaking. Epic. Better photos will be obtained soon from other cameras. Stay tuned.

Moving on, went to see The Other Guys at GSC. Action + comedy = crackpot laughing. Jane went home after GreenBox. Movie wasn't really that good, but nobody cared. With a few more hours to spend, we went for bowling and had late lunch.

After Yi Hong and Raymond left, it was me and babe left. Forgot to buy baby her ice cream.
Spent what was left of our quality time together left, baby's father fetched me home. How thoughtful.

Happy birthday once again baby, love to have spent it together with you ♥

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Victory, and beyond.

2010-10-25T16:45:00.005+08:00

"Click on photo to enlarge"

Slope, parking, and 3-point-turn, perfected.

On the road. Almost perfection...almost.

Waiting next week for P license. One priority of life completed. Next, SPM. I'm really missing those times where my driver instructor taught me everything. Mr Yap's really the man. Lunch was on him once, and now I must return the favour soon. Don't worry, I'm a man of my word.

And,

I'm gonna miss driving your Kancil..

Miss all the times you've complained bout me not pressing the clutch to the max, but I've perfected it. No worries, I'm riding solo hereon after. God I sound like a soap opera.

Priority 2 set, memorize moral nilai for the bloody moral paper.

Screw that, tomorrow's my baby's birthday. Gonna have a hell of a time ♥.

Each station brings me closer to you.

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Total Makeover

2010-10-23T01:30:00.004+08:00

I have officially changed my blogskin and the theme of my blog.

I will no longer be known as the Shadows of Life. Moving forward with life, I have set my soul and made this change..

I've put my past behind me. No longer in darkness, for I have found light. For I have found reason for living.

Enter, the new chapters of my proceeding journal.

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Step it up.

2010-10-17T02:22:00.008+08:00

Last post, August 5. I wondered how long I disappeared from the blogging sphere.

I have a lot to post up.. pictures especially.. But blogger got me frustrated. Slow upload speed, Unifi seems to be better than streamyx.

I'll let my pictures do the talking. Of where I disappeared. First of all, Melaka Jonker Street.

Arrived at night..for a one night trip.

Next morning,

Wonderful grammer.

And the "Houses"

Notice the flags.

I got bored.. So I fogged up the bathroom with hot water in the tub, and with the condensed droplets of water on the mirror, I did this out of boredom..

Never forgotten this I found on a menu.

I had to leave out much details.. I'm technically cramming everything into this one post.

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Next day, date with baby. She brought company along, bei and one guy forgot name le. Went redbox and movie with them.. Still holding the receipt in my hands.

Nerd modes on. What's the deal with street lights. You'll find out sooner.

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Latest news feed. I'm finally progressing with my driving. Had my second lesson just 2 days ago. My instructor said I learned quick. Learning parking and 3 point turn in less than an hour.. It was kinda fun. Then he asked me to drive him round taipan and USJ23 area. Mastered the clutch and gear better than my first lesson. Now I'm going over 50km/h and my instructor is calling me to rilek..

Second trials for SPM is over. JPS did a better job for not leaking out as much as this mid term but I never really did bother about leaks though. SPM is like, 1 more month.

I just don't get why I don't feel the pressure.

This has gotta be my Most Pictured Post yet.

Oh yeah, and happy 9 months 1 day le baby.. We've come a long way. ♥

Streaks of light over jonker street. I love this picture. This was the deal with street lights.

Yours truly,
Josh ♥ Jojo

Life at a glimpse

2010-08-05T14:36:00.008+08:00

Lets commentate on the wildest decisions made and doubted that it was reconsidered to its maximum. I will be facing trial exam of SPM this saturday. Easy ain't it?. What's out of place is that other schools will be having their trials 1 month later. Second, the first day is on a saturday. Let's give a big hand to the principal. Yes and I mean a big hand, the one that embeds a bodyglove mark on her face.

This week itself is a countdown, yet I felt that time is frozen. I feel I still have so much time. Sense of timing, clock in my body wound out of bounds? I couldn't care less. It's just exams. 5 credits is enough to get me through. What I'm about to do in the future doesn't involve any of my current registered academics. What a waste of 2 years.

Right, forgotten. It's nothing much.. but..

God, I passed undang. After 7 months of delaying.. Due to personal reasons of course. I'm colour blind. I assume you know that did you? Mild, not to worry. And I thought the exam was hard, 50 questions of nonsense some people say. Study the night before, and you have no problem. Yes, you have to study. Many questions came out from what I read the night before. The car plate number test, it's like testing your intelligence. WTF 126.. What do you see? Precisely the point.

Met my baby last week. At least I got the chance to see her once more just before the exams. Drives my perspiration much. Intended to go and study maths, end up doing God-knows-and-you-know stuff. Well, making the most out of it. Exam is approaching. A little happenings
scenes:

Yes, she's studying history. God knows what drug she took for her concentration capacity.

And then we did our stuff. Nuff said. In case you're asking, I was sweating.

Back at the station whilst I was waiting for the train back, I saw this mini cat licking up an ice cream puddle. It was a big puddle. I glance back to see how blessed I have been, rather than to be as stray as a cat. I actually took pity to that small creature and gave it some Maggi Hot Cup soup for it to drink. Yes, I was hungry so I bought one.

And just a little bit of extra info. I redecorated my room for an extra ambiance of effect, study aura initiated. As I'm typing this, the feel is coming on. Better not lose it. It's hard to initiate.

You're a blessing in my path, it's lighted by the flare of our love.

Yours truly,
Josh ♥ Jojo.

Don't call my name.

2010-07-23T23:07:00.005+08:00

Tricked into a trance,
I doubt thee hath a clue,
I was drawn to you.
Fate brought us together.
We met with the wierdest perspective.
Petrified at the thought,
of the chances I,
could find such a perfect girl like you.

I may not be fluent with words,
nor get you the greatest gifts.
But you,
never fail to show me
the love that is so unconditional.
Distance be our obstacle,
the test of faith.
We stood by for over 6 months.
Growing deeper by the second.

I ain't afraid,
for you're in my embrace.
You've given me a force unlike any other.
One that drives me past limits.
Over my head.
A relationship like this,
many couples would die for.
I wish to show your love to the external,
but deemed unauthorized
by the law of love.
Controversy be it not,
You're perfect from every angle.

I may not be the perfect guy,
but my love for you,
beats every other,
incomparable beyond every comparison.
Baby, I love you.
It indeed is deemed as forever.
I find myself at lost of words,
at every moment I taste your lips.
Conversation with between our hearts,
no doubt our only form of communication,
since your serene lips,
sealed with mine for what seems like eternity.

Never will I walk a lonely road ever,
with you side by side.
Mountains and valleys,
can hardly symbolize the deepness
of us lovers.
Hence, I don't remark first person terms,
I use We.
As We are One.
A long road stretched beneath our feet,
awaiting more adventures we can share
with each other.

A love like this,
worthy of the eternal flame.
I'll keep it going,
for as long as I live.
Don't call my name,
Silence speaks everything.
Enhances the atmosphere,
Dust of the cupid surrounds us.
We drift off to a land,
where only the true dwell.
Viva la amantes como nosotros.
Spanish be I.

I will never let you go, be it forever.

Yours True'ly,
Josh ♥ Bibii Jojo

Picture in a portrait.

2010-06-30T23:06:00.004+08:00

Of what seems like a flick, half the year has gone behind us. And we have the notion to feel as time had a wormhole. Press it on. Life of an under-averaged kid.

As I glance back the past I realised how much time and world had revolved, no turning back, no scraping grubs. Thankfully conferred with the sense of time, it somehow revolves slower around my region. They say bad times crawl and good times fly. Choose the mindset to feel that good times are coming to an end, hence appreciating the enjoyment and blissfulness to the maximum.

Changes, the substance to the issue that was hereby inevitable, drags humans to loopholes of destiny where the future was unknown. I seem to press alot about time and future lately. Maybe its cause I've spoken thoroughly about life, thus having precognitions about the future?.. Skipping the fact about pushing your choices in life to the side, independence was undoubtedly a vital weapon for the gunslinger. I always knew spontaneous changes in individuals are, but most are unaware of the advent cause that lies ahead of each road taken.. Done it may be, but bitch please, them be my choice I hath made.. Analysed the consequences, I suffer me and me alone. A no more but a mere human inadequate to the rapid alteration of space and time. I wept.

In a translucent disarray, I find myself hypnotised into a world filled with unforgiving dismay. On the contrary, I sound like a hypocrite. Damn with the thought of failures day by day. Is it merely a side effect, or just a form of reverse psychology? I admit with balls of steel, I am nothing but a failure. That seperates me from society. I have no regrets, once again I rev myself to try to perform great acts in which others incomparable, withstanding failures again and again, I finally conclude that talents really are limited. But harness it to the fullest, it is one's greatest asset of survival and entertainment.

Was once discriminated, am still. I find peace. To the blind eyes of most, I sadly salute you my regards. We people, don't go round enjoying luxurious outings, meals, bondings, gossips, camwhoring. And maybe even self declaration of depravity, hence you complete your full set of a delicious meal that consists mostly of unappreciation and a lack of self conscience. Your aptitude of judgement proves much. You just pose nothing much than just an obstruction which is easily overcomed by ignorance. Once again, I retake lowering one's humanity just as much as what I recieved. Merely an iron block behind a face, a picture in a portrait. The irony of life.

Life as a chip, you'll never realise how good it tasted till the last crunch.

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Take a peek into life's delusions.

2010-06-18T23:12:00.003+08:00

Alright. Enter, yours truly.

I've rotted this holidays. I know time isn't in my hands right now but I don't feel a thing about upcoming exams. Is it because of my declination of studies? Or merely I lost interest. Concluded. It is both.

I fell into a relapse of mind as time revolved right in front of me eyes. I had a dream few nights ago. Standing right in space, where events, pictures, memoirs, experiences, drifted past my vision, where I believed I even saw the future.. An unclear future. Yours truly has been granted the gift of precognition. But with barely 2% chance of success. Nevertheless, nobody feels normal going to sleep almost every night with dreams of reality. I guess some are just bestowed with such abilities for the sake of changing lives.

Life as an outcast brings peace. I thoroughly enjoy the serenity in which most have no clue how to feel. Things I do being alone most of the time, I look back at past posts of my blog. The most powerful posts of all. Most of the time I don't crack myself to think of verbs and definitions to blog, but merely just write what my heart has to say. And when I look back, I feel life as it is, is capable of changing fates and lives of one's characteristics and personality. I feel, I have almost written everything about life that I know, reached into corners, dug deeper, and trust me, I am still digging for more gold to produce experience of life.

Frail, puny humans like we. We can wonder why humans even existed. But we exist for a purpose and its only up to us and us only to discover our purpose for living. I, despicable me, have said, destiny don't shape you, you shape your own destiny. I agree, I keep looking back at my stories of success post.. And everytime I glance at it, I get a brain block. Virtually all my thoughts, experience, and life is being conferred in black and white onto that post.

I look at things, which are blind to many. You see a printer, I see the ink. You see noodles in a bowl, I see the bowl in which the noodles are in. You sing the melody of music, I focus the bass. You see a magician pulling a rabbit out of a hat, I see the gestures of his hand. Sometimes just looking at things from a different perspective and angle can give a rekindling glow to the dull lives of an individual. We cannot define life. As life means a different prospect to different people. LIFE as it is, goes beyond Whit's End looking for a definition that fits all criteria.

I'm still digging for gold in life, looking for more perspective to convey to humans how life should be lived. You cry because you failed your examinations, you cry because somebody you love passed away. There's no harm in it. It is only nature for humans to shed tears, as thou has been blessed with tear ducts to show emotions. But straying in the past and not letting go, is one of life's many a great mistake. Maybe this is why I don't give a damn about my examination results... Who am I kiddin here, the irony of life is there. A hypocrite is currently sitting behind this screen, telling you about how life is, from the deadly past of his mistakes made. Following the principle, I hath set a goal. If life is to strangle down from the ropes of the gallows, I just have to make sure nobody follows down my path. The ultimate inspiration must be created.

Be the light to guide my path. I stare at the setting sun as the horizon draws open the valley to a perspiration filled with joy, depression, maybe a tinge of anger. And again, its just a life, of a mere human being.

Awaiting results from the Sunway University Creative Blogging competition. Low hopes. They promoted a post from my nemesis. It even breaks my heart to refer you as a nemesis.

As one's ego drenches the crowd, he deprives of his humility and serves as a lower. - Quoted me.

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

When it was parents day.

2010-05-30T23:15:00.002+08:00

I don't hold back.
I'm dealt with the sheer pressure.
Things don't work out
as we want them to.
I'm human.
It's just ordinarily normal.

In time I realise the reason for living
is in the entertainment of others.
But them be it the mockers.
I find no refuge but myself.
What I incline,
to imply on you, my parents...
Once a year this takes place.
An event overlooked by most.
Especially me.

Time is not in my hands
at the moment.
So..
Happy parents day.
I can't believe I'm saying this.
I love you both..
No further questions.
I reconcile with me myself and I
To bring forth my courage
To let you know.
That is if you even swing by my blog.

"50 thousand years of childcare and they call it a cult?"
Lich - Kel'Thuzad

Yours truly,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

And it just keeps coming.

2010-05-26T13:35:00.002+08:00

Last post = May3 . Which shows my absence from the blogging world.

Solely the reason is because I want to keep the last 3 posts a headline for as long as I could. But anyway the world must keep spinning.

I held on a perspective that exams are gonna be a drag. Reverse psychology applied. And its one week left till exams are over. Mid terms I mean. For once I'd actually put in some effort for an examination since the year of the cow. With a little help of some leaks of course. Rage mode on for the oncoming trials.

Taking my undang khusus this saturday. It's been 5 months late...since I'm a January baby. Better late than never, although initially I am only allowed to take after SPM. In this case, since I will take it sooner or later, why not sooner?

I find a lack of time at the moment to post personal thoughts such as the previous posts. Busy working with piano pieces for my graduation event.

And yes, I despise myself for failing in academics. I will cover this up with a surge of artistic performance. I wonder myself, why wasn't I born a smart student getting A's for studies, instead born into the artistic world where most people think are failures?.. This I left it in God's hands, and his lamp lights my path. With no complains, I thoroughly follow it.

"If it must be done"
Darkterror - Faceless Void

Yours truly,

- Jo ♥ Jo ~

My Dream Story of Success

2010-05-03T16:45:00.016+08:00

edited july 3. Link to picture: http://www.sunway.edu.my/mysuccess Sorry I can't link the picture back to your website. Tried and cant.

I recently stumbled upon this contest in my MSN inbox. So I'd thought hey, why not give it a shot?

The title is as it is written. My Success, My Dreams. But the content in which I was indicated, shows that it must be written to create inspiration in people. Solely overall, my blog as been always to inspire people and drive them towards their goals.

I will start off with myself. Yours truly is Joshua Wong. Age 17 this year and having only one dream. The dream to strive for the best and for the greater good. Nevertheless, my story doesn't start off with an admirable headline. I've troubles with my studies. My parents had many a time given me lectures about how terrible my studies were. Turns out, I was diagnosed with the disorder named ADHD. (Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder). I couldn't sit still for 10 minutes to read a book I didn't enjoy. I'm hyperactive in the classroom. It is as though things I weren't interested in, I'd barely put my focus into it. This disorder contributed to my academic decline.

Henceforth, I was discouraged. My examination results never showed flying colours. But I thought to myself: "No matter. Giving up ain't a choice". For the public acknowledgement, I have completed my Grade 8 both practical and theoretical examinations in the Associated Board Royal School of Music, otherwise known as ABRSM. I too have finished the Yamaha Grade 5. It seems as I have developed a sense of interest in music ever since I was a toddler. Truth is, I am very grateful of my parents to have detected this particular interest, and have sent me for music classes at a tender age of 4. I assure you, their sacrifice was never in vain. I developed perfect pitch, well hearing, and good senses of improvisation, one of the many vital assets in my life.

Eventually, I discovered myself as an artistic person. Sadly, most asian parents these days have the implication of failures of being somebody that is not involved in the business world. Economics seem to run in their blood, therefore having inadequate knowledge about the entertainment world. My dream, I plan to strive the road towards music, and create colours in the dull and mundane lives of individuals that lack enjoyment and serenity of music. I have determined my path of my future. It is inevitably true that one must have his or her future planned out ahead soon, or risk being caught in a crossroad of decision making.

My thematic role to you is not just about letting you know my past and dreams, it is to pose a positive thinking into minds of individuals regardless of age that dreams are possible to come true. Nevertheless one has to come to realization that dreaming or acting alone proves futile. If one dreams, but no actions are taken, hence it is no different than fantasizing. On the contrary, if one takes actions blindly with no dreams or goals, it is the same as wandering in the wilderness without a map, leading you far from your destination. Both dreams and actions are an important ploy to success. Just as it is written, it takes two hands to clap, two people to tango, two chopsticks to eat, two persons to have intercourse. You get the idea.

Obstacles are always present on the road to success. To be honest, this is a form of perspective. Different individuals take the definition of the term 'obstacle' differently. Some see it as a challenge, some see it as a turning point. Whereas some looks at it with a positive manner, and some see it and gives up hope altogether. In my point of view and experience, obstacles in life are what builds up a person's individual character, behavior, and decision making skills. Many a time I run into obstacles of different shapes and sizes with all types of disguises. Regardless big or small it is, the only thing keeping me from straying the track is by mere perseverance and determination. It is vital that one must possess a will of iron and a heart of flaming desire. These are attributes that keeps my vision focused onwards my dreams.

If one has no dream, dream now. If one has a dream, strive for it with determination and overcome perpetual forces of temptation to draw you away from it. Friends and family are a worthy companion along for the battle. But bear in mind that they are only to assist and guide you, and not determine your future. We shape our own destiny. With a little hard work, we will be able to reach for the stars.

Along the path to the horizon, streaks of shame showers upon me. With only the little beacon to light my path.

Written by,
Joshua Wong Jun Wai

Anatomy of the mind.

2010-04-13T20:55:00.004+08:00

Sometimes the chances of crossing paths with a certain object or image, triggers what might be called the past reality, or perhaps even a dream one hath set foot on. Many a time one gives up due to daily dilemmas obstructing the course of pursuing the dream, or just plainly because of laziness and overrated indulgence of pleasure.

I've seen people failing time and again. As a leader, I believe my goal is to lead my minors to success. A leader is about creating followers, and ultimately, creating leaders. I see individuals fall to the ground, flailing like there's no tomorrow. Some in high sounds singing requiems of their failures. Moreover, the phrase 'bitter comes before sweet' seems to kick in most of the time.

I do agree, I'm a hypocrite. I've seen failures, I've failed myself. But the difference I make is that my feet never left the ground, springing itself back up.. Sometimes I reconcile with my subconscious mind with the 5 basic questions of life, 4W1H. This reflects back on most events to have ever made it to my permanent memory. Recently I have posted about mistakes in life.. Lies never disappear, it will remain till one day it is discovered hence being disastrous..

I've crosspathed with many flashbacks.. Never have I ever wished time would turn itself backwards to rewind phases of my life to repair my mistakes nor correcting wrong-doings.. These are experiences of life, where one would perish without the acknowledgement. I'm stating that most people waste more than ½ of their lives thinking back on how to change the past, thus obstructing their vision of the future.. Past creates you, present shows who you are, future improves you.. Delusions will still haunt you, your alliance binds you.. And you can say Damn to all who oppose you and fight for what is right.

This quote, I can give my right hand that most of Thee hath stumbled upon a time or another. "Yesterday's history, Tomorrow's a mystery. But today, is a gift. That's why we call it the present." Inspirational quote. I live by it.. It disallows me from having the mindset that failures will never prosper. The damn truth is that failures turn out to be the most successful people in history of mankind. Knowledge is a gift, not a privilege. Talents are on the contrary. These 2 elements in life are your assets to your future, your Touch n' Go for your toll stations.. Lose the card, and you will always have the shillings. Drawback is, it will always be troublesome to hear jingles of coins. Just as inadequate knowledge stands.

I merely portray my thoughts into this black and white format. Not by referring to references online or books as most of you would think I did.. Technically this is a summarized version of the true story going through my head.. I wish I could just pour my memoirs and experiences into this. But yet again, the world wide web has it's limited means, so is the human anatomy. Perhaps one day if science could advance itself further into creating a whole biological synchronization of the brain with the web, I say this enhancement don't just drop from the heavens.. It is mere sweat and blood of individuals who have failed yet again, and they are never called failures.

The mosaic distortion of the sun and clouds, significance of mind.

"Trust in my command"
Mirana Nightshade - Priestess of the Moon

Yours truly,
Josh ♥ Jojo

Hey wassup bitch?

2010-04-12T23:57:00.002+08:00

A dedicated post to all who insults me.. Wow look, a dedication post. Be honoured.

Can I help you?
It should have been like this,
Can you be helped?
Out of the question.
Judge me if you must,
Ultimately, your false judgement shall not prevail.

Down with insults. I've had loads of them. Come to think of it, People insult you because they're jealous of you. Or they insult you because they can't be what you truly are capable of.
So to speak. And usually I take peoples' insults as a form of constructive criticism. The insults I have taken over these past years pressed my perservarance. Sorry to you who wanna insult me, I'm invulnerable. But sad to say, each time you wanna insult me, I'll just put a mirror in your face. And that makes you twice as hideous. Smart people think twice before they act, and obviously you're neither smart nor a thinker =).

Terdapat seorang bernama Angel dalam blog Shi Hui.
Wondering who was that.
I may not know the name.
But it obviously is a coward.
Yes I said "it".
It somehow occured to me that
Angel and Ugly Hater ( in my chat box)
Might be the same person.
Just an assumption. Don't know if it's true.
Because both shared same similarities.

It's sad to see people like that wasting their lives insulting people with inadequate knowledge of the other party. I forgive people like these as they really are born idiots.. It's out of my power, since God made them in his image..

http://canijustsayiloveyou.blogspot.com/

Here is the link in which it is written.. Critiques like these come by once in a green moon. I guess I should honor them, both for being 'special' and brainless at the same time. On the contrary, they might be smart. But just by indicating somebody else a lesser being, proved them otherwise.. What a waste of being human. It is not in my nature to stab people in the back. Well to those who aren't 1337 enough, yes, I do not insult people..

Well, every great or soon to be individuals must face critiques like these, part of life's discovering journey I presume.. The more criticism I face, the more stronger I shalt be. Bombard me if you must, either way, I will always win. Insult me, you lose, I gain. Insult me not, save your face, save your dignity. This is specially for annoymous haters out there..

A last message I must convey to intelligently deceased individuals.. He who points the finger at me will point 3 fingers back at himself, whereas the thumb hereby faces me. Your selective disinformation proves futile if you are to tell the world who I am.. So learn something here. Humans are always learning. As said.. You are forgiven, both by the One and by me..

"It's about time"
Slayer - Lina Inverse

Your's truly,
Josh ♥ Jojo.

Mistakes.

2010-04-10T23:04:00.003+08:00

Mistakes, mere mistakes.
Repeated over and over again.
It's nothing wrong to make them mistakes,
Mistakes are meant to be made,
it is meant to be corrected,
Thus nobody is 100% perfect.

The psychology of the human mind,
think some mistakes that they hath made,
are far beyond the borders of remedial.
We're mere humans,
We're just enclosed in our prison of our mindset.

The sick truth is mistakes may claim our very lives.
Once upon a time I was bestowed life once more,
Surviving electrocution.
I thank the One that He has enabled me to continue on my journey towards life.
Mistakes I made,
Some that I have learned from,
some in which are just careless.

To those out there who weeps at the thought of agony and pain.
Damn to you who are unworthy of self respect.
Get back on your feet.
Your revenant past,
Holds no bounds but sheer pain.
Time is taken for experience,
Time is needed to repair broken souls.
Hence, time is relative.
Radical conclusions are just a finger's touch away.

Making a mistake.
Has it's comeback and the ultimate feedback.
Despite the truth about mistakes being made and learnt.
One fatal mistake can bring oneself to the knees.
Or worse still,
the greatest downfall.
No ultimate mistake may be formed verbally
yet the action will and always speak louder than words.

Outcast I have been,
I have concluded that it is destined.
I guess all paths are made by one himself.
Nobody determines your destiny,
Nobody makes your decisions.
The devil's advocate will try to drive you from your path time and again.
Perserverance is the only method.
The code of the damned in which to destroy you shalt ultimately fail.

I was strayed.
I was lost.
Never history shall repeat itself.
I have located my power within.
To drive me on,
hence accelerating me forward.
My one and only obstacle.
Lies just beyond my perspective.
Academics.

Reconciled,
Repented,
Reminisced.
Nevertheless, mistakes will bound to be made always.
Accept truths in your miserable life.
Cold hard truths that stare at you right in your face.
Different individuals make different wrong doings.
But yet every single body shares the same concept.
"I was wrong"

As I now stare at the night sky.
Breathing in the cool night air.
Allowing me to meditate on repairing holes of my past.
None remains.
I live life with no regrets.
NO one stands in my way.
In my mindset,
mistakes are mere pawns of greater obstacles in life.

To a certain somebody who mentions inadequacy deprived of your looks,
and hence hypocrisy..
I have only 3 words for you.
You ugly fuck.
Now that is one mistake in which is irreparable. Glad it is that way.

"I've been thinking"
Lich - Kel'Thuzad

Your's truly,
Josh ♥ Jojo.

Raindrops are falling on my head.

2010-04-03T15:56:00.003+08:00

I haven't been realising what came over me on a busy friday afternoon, but I was over the edge.

I reluctantly left my keyboard to depart for my tuition. Sucks to say that once upon a time it was located just 2 doors away from my home. Currenly it's located far beyond, to those who know, its Taipan.

Never had transport there, always arrived by foot. Rarely with my trusted steed, the bicycle. But yesterday, it was nothing like before.

The sky was falling. I decided to go on foot. I took my bag, closed the gate, and stepped out into the vicinity of the rain.. And mind you, the rain was heavier than your microwave.. And of course, an umbrella I had. But it did little to shelter me. I barely walked 100 metres, my 3¼ pants were already soaked, my shirt was no different.. It metaphors gunshots at you, my shield wasn't enough to protect me. I blocked the main shots, but the deceptive shrapnel got me.. I couldn't see 30 metres ahead of me.. Cars swarmed by, pools of water were on the road, most caught me on my bottom half.. Flooded it was, additive the rain hadn't even lasted for 15 minutes.

I carried on, purely with perserverance.. Soon a bus stop appeared. I gratefully accepted it. Lowered my shield, and just to find out how heavy my slacks were.. Nevertheless, I continued my journey.. My crocs were flooded. Most steps I had to take filled my crocs with sky liquid. Even big jumps.. As I crossed the void between my region and towards USJ 6. I determined that I might not hath trudged through this, rather to stay in my warm bed. I was mixed with emotions.. It allowed me to think, it allowed me to reconcile with my conscience.. And what I reminisced was beyond language.

The rain continued it's onslaught, showing no mercy to us living beings.. Not a single soul was in sight, except I. My crocs squished with every step I took. I carried on. Then I noticed a car, the windows weren't wet at all.. It took me by surprise. The ground was wet and flooded, the car window was TOTALLY dry, along with other cars in the same region. Turns out that this area might not have rained yet. It seems I have walked between dimensions, one was raining, the other was calm.. I enjoyed the fresh air as I continued walking.. I enjoyed the serenity of silence, I thought God might hath stopped the rain from falling in this area. But I spoke too soon..

Nonetheless I reached my destination. I sat in tuition with my bag wet, my hair down, shirt soaked, and pants heavy.. And to sit there for 2 hours, it drove me almost out of my head, not to mention 3 air conditioners in the room..

I was wet, cold, semi-angry, tired, exhausted, beat.. I stank of wet clothes.. Never was I happier the instant I reached my base, my home.. Henceafter, never will I deja vu. Under the circumstances.

"I sing a requiem for the land-walkers"
Slithice - Naga Siren

♥,
Jo

So shall it be.

2010-03-30T19:11:00.004+08:00

I hath press on to my objective. No more sleeping in class. (or at least quantity decreased)

Special big thanks to my sibei good friend. YJ. Dude, you hath given me the inspiration to move on once more, I hope it'd prevail long after. I've set my objective, I've set my goal.. Thanks to you, I'm on the path once again. I don't know to show this appreciation in words for you, but this is the confession of a mere juvenile.

Let's hardcore them physics first.. And slowly move on to others, lets own them minions.. And so shall it be, lets initiate.

"I'm awake, I'm awake"
Syllabear - Lone Druid

♥ing babe,
- Josh ♥ Jojo ~

Touch a wood.

2010-03-25T22:34:00.003+08:00

This post shalt function as a personal reminder, and a precaution for others to take.

Today is was, departed to MidValley to meet with babe. Many mishaps happened today.. I'm not definate either it was fated, or shit happens. Train to KL Central to interchange train to MidValley, I was told that the train was delayed 45 minutes due to some non-related technical difficulties.. Nonetheless, I still made it to my destination, with her.

I'm not significating that one should avoid the KTM, I'm just statin, shit could happen to you in any way.

Here's the main juice of the lesson.

Makin out in the back stairs, when 2 big sized melay (yes, melay) security guards come bursting in asking for IC and what not.. Sad part, underage. 2nd, we're still in school uniform.. They found out by a muthafukin camera hanging up there. I surprised myself, it was right under my nose.. Technically over my head, yet non of my senses told me a camera was within my vincinity.. Furthurmore it was bigger than your head.. Vital mistake caused the downfall.

To make a long story short, the guards keep stating parents or school must be called up. If not we'll be put in what as known as hostages.. Never fretted, due to their directive perspection, and their intonation, they were indicating a bribe.. The guards keep reeling off the same sentence about how they'd caught other students getting further than just making out.. But I come to a conclusion they all got involved in a bribe.

Hence, they took the bribe, and erased the video recording. Nice way to make a living.. I can really bet this happened to all that was caught. Nevertheless, they left with RM35.. I reconciled the amount, they just took it. Amusing, and I thought they'd expected a few hundred.

I find this event intriguing.. Something most individuals might not expect.

Sorry babe, for this experience.. Experience for the better, better now than later.. Thanks for
To all ye coup-dê-Graces out there, learn from meh. Open your eyes, analyse, interpret, and negotiate.. In the end, all men need are the papers in your wallets..

Pictures will be edited into this post some ticks later. My phone is showing signs of retardation.

"My song echos"
Slithice - Naga Siren

Your's regards,
Josh ♥ Jojo

Les Memoirs.

2010-03-20T00:08:00.004+08:00

Henceforth some hold-stills from yesterday and day before. Forgive my retarded substitute camera phone, it's pixels is only 1mp.

To those who aren't 1337 enough, seremban is a long way from here.. here are the steps,
1: Train departs from subang.
2: Reaches KL Central
3: Switch train that heads to seremban.

Whole process takes 2½ hours, how pleasant. Despite that, pleasant, comes after.

Some pictures on the KTM.

Companion for the road.

Perspective zipping through.

Sneak peaks in teh house.

Read between us.

Many more yet to be posted, most because of censory, and many other purposes.
Anyway, I'll slip one through.

Yes babe, I sibei love you lots..

"My strength, is yours."
Syllbear - Lone Druid

Your's,
- Jo ♥ Jo ~

Official statements.

2010-03-18T22:53:00.007+08:00

I'm high.

That should be official enough..

Yesterday and today, I went to like, Seremban? Took me 2½ hours to reach there from subang.. Took KTM of course.. Now I know the routes like the back of my hand.

Today is a true triple kill for me. And I shalt explain why.

First off, the seremban trip.. To those who know why seremban, let it be shall we? =).
I leave home around 8, and reach there around 10.30. So basically I killed 6 hours over there with her~, 2 days, is awesome blissfulness.

2nd, today is my brother's birthday, and also my old classmate's birthday, so happy birthday Yu Hsuan!. And to my brother Joel Wong.. Go hit him for no good reason, he likes that.. Therefore my family (yes, including my father) went to TGIF for dinner. I never finished my chicken, it was godlike fulfilling...

Last but not least, hey it really is ain't the least.. This is truly out of expectation.

Hell yeah, finally...and I mean..FINALLY..

My dream instrument.. I play piano, most of you know it. But not many of you might know I have a sense of bass while listening to music. Usually there's a song, people singing the melody and stuff, while my focus is passively on the bass of the song.. Plus I'm a bass in choir, very much an important contribution.

More to post, Later to come. I'm worn out, I'm beat.. I'm tired, yet happy.. It shall be elaborated more, when I hath the feelin, the time, the energy, the passion.

"I'm more than meets the eye"
Tinker - Boush

Outcome.

Signing off,
- Jo ♥ Jo ~

Terrace Tranced

2010-03-16T22:52:00.003+08:00

"My heart is like an open highway"
It's my life - Bon Jovi

Your's .....,
- Jw²~

Imbalance of the force.

2010-03-13T23:46:00.007+08:00

My father didn't know I hath reincarnated my blog. And I just got into some deep shit fight with him. It was an admirable one.. And before that, I just told him my blog was resurrected.

So I hope you're reading this "dad". This post is dedicated specially to you, my ex-father who is too fucking close minded.

You're a proud man eh? Every time you read my blog, you'd be so proud to show it to people in your office. So share this to all of them, so that the world knows how unlucky I am to even call you my father.

Yes, I've been given many times a lecture about "the love of parents", "the blood and sweat", "Their sacrifices".. Dammit please, I'm the optimist one, not you.. When people tell you that you're blind, you're still too blind to see it. I even added an extra verb called "fucking blind" to you. Obviously a pair of spectacles ain't enough for you..

For too long, I hath been seeking refuge under your useless wings of "protection".. People in the world reading this now will have the image of me disrespecting my "father". But it is your fucking inadequancy to interpret that.. Ye think ye the only individual to have put up with a child like me? I got fuckin sick of doing that myself to you.. Never I hath caught a glimpse of anybody's father in the world as delinquent as you.. The exchange of the term "fuck" already proves you're merely one minion of the damned.

I wish I could tell more to the whole world about this underdog. But my means are limited.. As one would have acknowledged my call, clearer than the clearest river..

I am disowned by him, not legally as the law states. Nevertheless, I still count it in my favor. So till then or never, FUCK YOU.. You were never my father, just like you said before me, that I was never your son.

Be grateful I never mentioned your name, I'm all a tingle to do so.

I'm just letting the world know what sort of father are you.

"What's done is done"
Crixalis - Sand King

Your's damned,
- Josh ½ wong~

Balance.

2010-03-10T16:14:00.002+08:00

It's been long.

Hence I shalt only briefly state my past events, amusing.

T'was a monday. After the assembly, we practically had no teacher at all till the end of school. The end.

Tuesday it was.. Timetable was Chemistry 2 period, Bio 2 period, recess, Physics 2 period, Maths, Malay 2 period. After having my 3 sciences done, other teachers were absent.. A waste of a day.

And so it was today, which marks my final day of my music class, theory.. After seeing my teacher for over 12 years, the inability of words to describe.. Final theory exam, grade 8, on 15/3/2010.

God speed to me.

"I'll do my best"
Trogdar - Dragon Knight

It is,
- Jo ♥ Jo ~

Confessions of the dissonant note.

2010-03-07T22:41:00.005+08:00

Time is relevant, so does life.
Sometimes the things that people might say to one are beyond a person's limit.
Henceforth a sibling rivalry.
We are close in heart, but different in blood.
I choose to respect those who deserves respects, but deprive those who abused it.
But all in all,
Its every man for himself out there.

"What would you ask of me?"
A quote not likely to be asked of people this generation.
How stingy can one get anymore
I have given everything I could.
I'm sorry if things hadn't work out.
I'm sorry if things didn't go your way.
But you hath trespassed the line of my territory
Negotiations proved futile.

Insults are passed from one lip to another as if it were a normal conversation
Racism is being somewhat occuring with a sense of humour.
Backstabbing is done oh so silently
Discriminations are that common since the invention of the cellphone.
Thanks for all these you guys have given me.
It made me a better person..
It made you lesser beings.
Thanks for proving that once again.

As the tide of my needs rise,
just like the ebb and flow,
the inadequancy to fulfill one's desires for lust and money.
Amusing.
I conclude to thank you.
For driving me to be just me and me alone.
Every man lives,
But not every man truly dies.
I am neither,
For neither be redeemed of his sins.

"Our blood, shall mingle on the battlefield"
Ish'kafel - Dark Seer

Your's truly,
- Jo ♥ Jo~

Tinge of reality.

2010-03-02T22:46:00.003+08:00

Blind to surroundings, deaf to voices in your head, crippled in your own bones of disability. Human nature, the imperfection.

These few days, many individuals whom I've met, drives my perspective towards humans to a much higher level.. They say nobody's perfect, and I'm a nobody.. Quotes like these are far beyond time, it should be corrected as 'individuals on earth are merely pawns of the greater One'.. How far one is able to go, it is just but a limit.

A couple of people intrigued me on this post. One even brings up the subject about enemies.. The term is defined, as an opponent in a battle, or your opposition. It can also mean somebody that hates you, and vice versa. Having enemies is never a downside.. If somebody is your enemy, it means somebody is holdin a feeling of jealousy towards something you possess, and which the person doesn't have.. As well as it gives one a boost to strive for the better purpose. Hence maybe that is why the term "love your enemies" is named hereafter.. Though many find it difficult to heed.

Much intriguing. I've met a complete replica of somebody I've lost contact with 5 years, who is now in New Zealand. I came somehow into a branch of guilds known as the DeftInvade, who's other branches were DeftDefence and DeftFrontier. Its somewhat like an army assault recruit. (thats what I classify it).. The leader, simply known as the LordVepta.. His individual attributes inspired my choices of decisions, words, actions, and thus being a leader.. His greatest downfall however was, his attitude.. I can't portray much over the media, and it's up to you to figure how he was like. It's much interesting as to the contrary, that people really are created based on the Sovereign's image.

So after losing contact with him, who's in NZ furthering his studies. I'd lost all memories about him.. Till one fateful day, Friend's for Sale hath brought me the utmost unexpected fate any mere human can have. 2 fates in fact, one in which, most of you hath known. The second, is the replica of Lordvepta.. The choices of words, language, style of speaking.. Picture yourself talking to somebody back from the dead..

These 2, I hath the utmost respect for them, and its all that I have gained knowledge from, that has contributed to my honour for them. Sometimes, these people drives you to the limit one time too many. Beset upon the gift of tolerance, I have gained knowledge about humans, human psychology.

Reminiscing the past, just a mere revenant memory.

Up in heaven, the dissonance of serenity.

"Darkness guides me"
Razor - Lightning Revenant

Your's truly,
- Jo ♥ Jo ~

Tuesday Tensions

2010-03-02T13:56:00.004+08:00

Hardly even defined as tension, despite the papers were hard, I 'd hardly even feel any tension.

English paper was never a problem, till this year they just had to give 2 essays with the allocated time of only 1 hour.. Many complained time wasn't sufficient. I was at the peak of ending, so it didn't really matter. Ass part was add maths, the teacher who gave the scale of the x-axis and y-axis, didn't even co-relate to the question. and ½ hour was wasted just by teacher walkin in and out not figurin what to do.. Proud as I must be, this would mark my first ever time to pass Add Maths.

Hence history, the most despised paper of all subjects.. My head was on the table before it even began, and woke up the last 5 minutes to shoot the objective.

"I'd rather doze than to waste my time on Sejarah" quoted me.
"Drawing graphs are merely killing trees" quoted Yap Zhen Wei
"1+1=3" quoted Oxford.

Screw exams, off to DotA.

"By ebb, and flow"
Slardar - Slithereen Guard

Your's truly,
- Jo ♥ Jo ~

Exam, period.

2010-02-28T15:14:00.004+08:00

Week of examinations hath arrived.. Not to mention the following week of my final examination of theory of music grade 8.. When this is over, I'd not have to see my teacher's face that I've gotten used to for the past 9 years.

Despite it only is the monthly test, lasting for only 3 days, people keep stressing the point that no examination must be taken lightly. I'm not surprised, many people grasp the similar concept. To me, examination is just a form a self-analysation of the level of an individual's knowledge statistics.. No point getting all worked up and nervous about an upcoming test or exam.

SPM will be gone in less than a flash, and moment we know it, many people would be wandering blindly of the future courses they would wanna partake.. Hence form 6. They say STPM certificate's the all-course passports.. But suffering another 2 years in secondary school is the last thing in the corner of my cranium.. Unless deemed necessary of course, SPM hath been failed.. Then people would have named SPM, Self Pressuring Moments.

UCSI College University has offered my most precognited courses. After the open day yesterday, it is decided. The only drawback was it's in cheras, way far from home. No matter, I somehow made up my mind.. It is clear to me now that music hath been my path ever since young. A non-science student 'wasting' 2 years of his life in pure science stream, is due to the art's stream in local secondary schools not offering the true meaning of Art Stream..

Form 5 is much awaited to be over. I'm all a tingle for what lies ahead on the path.

"Intriguing"
Razor - Lightning Revenant

- Jo ♥ Jo ~

Deviancy

2010-02-25T13:50:00.002+08:00

School was my dreamland today for about 4½ hours.

Mid afternoon, it was raining. And I saw something, triggers my revenant past in my closet to unveil itself again. Why.. I never wanted to feel that again.. This is, fucked up.

"The shadows call"
Rikimaru - Stealth Assassin

- Jo ♥ Jo ~

Reconnection with the world

2010-02-23T13:39:00.002+08:00

I did the most amusing thing today. I actually woke up and took a bath before going to school. o.o

The first thing ever to caught my attention today, was during assembly session, the Shee Foong, held in his hand, the utmost surprise I ever had in time, a living cicada. Cicadas aren't usually found in these parts of the country...and SF actually told me he found it squealing in his house..(in case to those who have no clue to what a cicada is, its a species of bugs in which their cries can be heard to several miles away. is an insect of the order Hemiptera, suborder Auchenorrhyncha, in the superfamily Cicadoidea. In which their wings are what caught my attention.. There're many species though. The one that SF is held in his palm is similar to this kind.

And thus he was left alone in the centre of a circle, with everybody standing a radius away.. Much intriguing, whenever he presses the cicada, it actually buzzes.. Quite loud actually..making him the centre of attention. It's volume can increase whenever it pleases, usually during it's mating season.. Impressive, when I was young, I read books bout this interesting insect, and this is my first ever sight of a real cicada. Beautiful..

Do not expect highlights of my school.. Basically I have non other but nothing to post about. Its a daily granted association in which it has become my almost daily life.. Today I was kept awake by a book, brought by High Yoong.. Titled "The Unexplained"... So as the title goes, I presume many of you would catch the clue to what's contained inside..Yes, Paranormal Activities and Happenings..

I don't know why. But, this things catch my interest much deeply.. I recall back the time of Form 2, a group of classmates, also intrigued in these sort of talks, we sat in a group and discussed paranormal happenings, sightings, stories, issues, and all nonsense to other ears.. But from this book I read today, I came across some interesting facts I never had came to acknowledge before.

~ The statue of Virgin Mary, her eyes bled real blood.. Forgot what the reason was, it was then analysed to be confirmed as real blood, O4 blood. Not a normal human blood.
~ A brick, levitated 4 feet off the ground, picture was taken by a BBC photographer.. It hung in the air for several hours.
~ Raffles hotel in Singapore is haunted. Many reports of hearing a girl's faint singing of nursery rhymes in dark corners of the hotel.. It is proven that a young girl pupil died in a school that was once build there before Raffles.
~ I understood Poltergiests, a series of unfortunate events happening to a person, most likely in the house. A vase can suddenly break, strange cries about, pans and plates breaking by themselves.. Poltergiests are restless ghosts, the term restless should satisfy your understanding.
~ 140 people died in a school, causing by huge amounts of charcoal raining on it, completely demolishing the school.. It is said, over 40 reports of people to have dreamt about it(precognition), one girl told her mother the night before, "mummy, I dreamt I went to school today, there was no school there, only bunches of black stones." And next day she died in school there.. The mother was rest assured because her daugher had been talkin bout death lately, and she stated she was not afraid of death.
~ Reincarnation, sisters, age 6 to 11, died in a horrible car crash.. The father, premonised that they will be reincarnated. Few years later, the mother was pregnant with twins.. After they were born, the parents recognised the scars on their faces of the car crash.. They had same names. And as they got older, they recalled strange memories, like the names of their dolls, (they even knew which doll belonged to whom). Whats more frightening is, when they're alone, they talk about the car crash, which they should have no knowledge about it. They'd talk about the blood coming out of their mouth, their legs being ran over... But by the age of 5, they'd completely lost memory of what has happened.
~ Abraham Lincoln has a train. After he was assasinated, a train carried his body back to where he was buried. Every year on that day, a phantom train is reported to be seen passing silently through the tracks.. More than 100 sightings were reported every year.
~ The stones at Stonehenge, several stones, weighing several tonnes each, are being built on top of one another. No technology has been able to lift such stones. They are said to be alien.. Once Hippies, built their tents in the middle of the stones, (it was a ring of stones), suddenly, lightning came, struck the stone, a flash of blue light, eerie blue light. 2 people, a farmer and a policeman, witnessed the light, then later after the flash, they went to the ring of stones, nobody was there, only tents on fire.. Some theories say it is another portal to another dimension, and the lightning was the bridge to it.
~ Many hauntings in houses or hotels, mostly involving a dead body in the area, mostly screams, smells, gust of cold wind, indicate the presence of ghosts.
~ There're several types of ghosts, some are benign, means walking, more like gliding, across the ground.. Some are helpful ghosts, giving you a sign of what's to happen in the future..(most people were either saved from death, or to those who did not heed the warning, died) one case of the Titanic, a docter had this vision of a ghost giving him a sign of death by water, he did not heed, and therefore paid the price. This story was given by his psychologist. And there are vengeful ghosts, to return from the dead as spirits to avenge somebody, or to finish something left undone.
~ The Winchester house, is said to be the top 3 most haunted houses in the world. One lady, forgotten her name, ghosts had been appearing to her, giving her messages, that she must keep building more rooms, or she would die. So she hired 24/7 workers, to keep building. A total or 140 room, 2000 doors, and 4500 windows were constructed. On a certain date, she would prepare a meal for 13 people on the table, in which 12 of the guests are ghosts, and she would toll the bell, to have a feast.. Before she died, she passed this on her niece. Now, Winchester house is a tourist attraction.
~ I read some part about Internal Human Combustion. Forgotten the real name.. In which some people, suddenly burst into flames from the inside of the body.. Scientists are still baffled and are unable to provide an explaination.. The legs of a woman was posted in the book, of what remains after the sudden combustion. her top of her body of completely ashes, leaving only her legs with her shoes still on.. Investigation was carried out, no other part of the house was ever caught on fire..no combustible items were found, no matches, lighters, stoves..

There're many more, I just forgotton them, I don't have the book with me now.. Sometimes, we students discover our own theories and share them around, and in fact many of them could be accepted as a hypothesis.. Mostly about alien sightings, and extra-terrestrials.. Till then, the unexplained, could remain as the unexplained..

"I go unseen"
Pugna - Oblivion

Your's frightfully,
- Jo ♥ Jo ~

The Return

2010-02-21T17:58:00.004+08:00

It hath been long, since the last ever true update.. I haven't been granted the time, so I shalt steal some, to make an update..

Intrigued, by the week of CNY. I can't post much, as I never took the initiative to remember unnecessary past events. For the first time, I actually gambled, in my grandparent's home back in Kepong.. Don't get me wrong though, I love playin cards, but I don't gamble...despite that, I went home with seriously more cash than I went there..

On a thursday it was, went to Shyi's house...and gambled once again, with friends, so I can't say much. Once a year, live it or screw it.. And once again, returned home with pockets filled with cash.. Truthfully, I never went around much during CNY.. More likely, I'm a homeground person.. Don't really like travelling, although I accommadate myself quickly to changes, doesn't mean I enjoy it.. Holidays end in approximately less than 6 hours time.. And tell me, whoever did their homework?

Friday, a great moment in pavilion.. Details are discreeted though.. Seremban is the keyword.. =)
Little may be revealed though.

1. the first time I actually purchased Baskin Robbins.
2. the first time I RedBox-ed..
3. the first person to buy The Wolfman for that day. o.o

New year, New resolution.. A resolution for a revolution.. Form 5 indeed is a turnover for me.. I rather admit I love my 5 Elok class.. Class isn't packed, but it's packed full of humour well enough for me.. And most of us I assume, share the same concept and resolution.. A group with the similar aim, drives me on enough... Thus this is where our alliance, binds me..

Recently, I have just passed the drama audition in my school's english club.. I must admit I lovehate it.. As the training time clashes with my choir.. which I too, lovehate.. Both of these mutualize, which gives me a major headache.. I'll have to reconsider soon..

Being subconsciously hyperactive in facebook, I must admit I hath abandoned my blog, in which I spent most of my time a few years back updatin it.. Such effort I feel, must not be in vain. Henceafter, I will try, updating every once in a while...and it shall be done.

Average followers of my blog, will realise I always leave a part of a sentence in a song at every end of each post. Since this is a new year, new ideas shall it be.. I might still do that, but I'll do something new. Ending with a DotA(Defence of the Ancients) character quote.. In which I find, rather intriguing.

"I've made it, once again"
Ish'kafel - Dark Seer

In which, your's truly once again,
- Jo ♥ Jo ~

Rofl.

2009-11-24T00:10:00.003+08:00

... wonder why can a plastic bag appear on my desk.. seeing the sony word.. heart began leaping.

omg.. is it?....

@$#@%@#$*_@$

Thanks Mom and Dad.. xD..

Teh slacking..

2009-09-13T22:29:00.002+08:00

Sorry about the lack of updates.. Man it's sick to start off like that..

Main reason of slacking: Been bitten by the facecbook bug.. I initially find it extremely boring and a waste of time..until a few people pestered me to join it.. And currently 'addicted' to it.. Kinda like a mix of friendster and plurk together..thus the convenience.

Cranky, I have TONS of updates..but forgetting them one by one.. Extreme lag of com, internet connection issues, and what not..all add up to a very annoying combination.. Till I can online 24/7, updates of blog, plurk and facebook will never cease..hahax.

Rock on!~

2009-08-14T22:38:00.003+08:00

Today well again, after the exams, I have been looking for things to entertain myself, or something like that.

Awesome.

Till Zach invited me to go jamming with some dudes on friday. Well, he kept inviting me for the last 3 months, but non of us had been free on the same time... Last friday itself was a blast. Rhythmix in SS15 was an awesome studio. Jammed for 2 hours. Total participants where 6, which include Zach(Electric Guitarist), me(Bassist), Paul(Keyboardist), Melvin(Electric Guitarist), Jin Shern(Electric Guitarist), Seng Kiat(drummer). It was a bit chaotic as there were not enough instruments at that time, but it was resolved quickly as to take turns playing, or swap instruments. Man the awesomeness..high is the word.

Then today, bad news was Rhythmix studio was fully booked.. We had to resolve to summit's studio. The standard was not as good as Rhythmix, but it was still a studio though.. This time Kelly Lim came along, as our singer =). We jammed Boston, Slow dancing in a burning room by John Mayer, New Divide by Linkin Park, and others I forgot.. Regret for not taking any videos, but we totally rocked on.. Its awesome to jam with you people, an unforgettable experience. I hope in the future we'll have more of this random jamming session. You guys rock.

And yes, I play the bass guitar, who says I am just a pianist?..

My dream instrument for now.. Ibanez at the least..

-JshIzHyyh~

Award Awesomeness..

2009-08-08T12:46:00.008+08:00

Thursday I skipped school..awesome.. For the first time in my entire life in Seafield, I did not come for 1 day!..lols.. At 8am, my father fetched me and Schaun to Pavilion to receive an award for the top 6 video making competition from Jerneh Insurance partnering with Green Malaysia. Visit jibgreencompetition.jerneh.com.my to find out more.

This prize giving event was held in GSC.. During the waiting session, we were escorted to a gold class lounge.. Lovely.. Right, there were other Seafieldians, in groups, Daniel Zian and Jenerthanen, Marcus Pee, Tracey, Sher Nong, Xi Yuin, Nik Nazneen and 1 girl..

I can't elaborate much about the event, pictures have to say it all. And yet again, I don't fancy taking pictures.. Here's just the overall ranking for Category A(age 16 to 19)

1st prize winner: Daniel Zian and members. Wins RM3000, certificate, a trophy, a camcorder..

2nd prize winner: Nik Nazneen and members. Wins RM2000, certificate, a trophy.

3rd prize winner: Joshua Wong and Schaun Mohan. Wins RM1000, certificate, a trophy.

4th prize winner: not our school

5th prize winner: not our school

6th prize winner: Marcus Pee and members. Wins RM200 and certificate.

I won't say Category B(age 20-23) because it doesn't involve us..if you're intrigued to view their videos, juz go to the website and click shortlists, and download the videos. My video is listed as Schaun Mohan. The best part doesn't end here, latest by Ramadan, Jerneh is going to call up the top 3 winners from each category and will be interviewed live on tv, and shots for cover magazine, I don't know what magazine.. Newspaper will be out too..

Here are some shots I took for fun during the event..

But then again, here's the video produced and directed by me, myself and I. Schaun provided a little inspiration.

Please ignore the credits. Stop at 50 seconds..

Or go http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UD_15hXYnwY for better quality viewing.

Makes my day..

2009-07-12T01:24:00.000+08:00

Supreme Sunday.

2009-07-06T15:56:00.007+08:00

Carnival day was fun..nothing much to update though. Giler tiring that day. Lemme explain why.

1. Woke up at 6.45, because have to be at school at 7am SHARP for pengawas duty.. The rots of being a prefect is you get all the hard work while other people enjoy..

2. Played the dunk tank more than anything else in the carnival. I dunked Ashween twice in a row, Tze Quan once, Yan Chi once.. All in 6 shots ratio.

3. Played scouts table talk.. Was drenched with cold water.. Evaded most water attacks from Kai Ning with a plate. Soaked my shoes in well mud.. Just a figure..it was a cold morning...very cold..

4. Cycled to and from home area to school. To school, to F&G to buy spoons, to school again, to summit bridge to pick someone to the carnival, found out was the wrong bridge, cycled to SK USJ2 bridge, then back to school..then back home to change my muddy shoes, then back to school.. all in half an hour...

5. Left at 1.30, Tzi Ying brought me to a USJ 1 church for SubangRally Usher briefing..not to mention my pants was stained with mud..(Couldn't change my pants, only my shoes).. Talking lasted for 3 hours plus, already almost drained of energy.

6. 5.30 reach home. Left again to cycle to USJ12 for balls..

7. Left at 6.45, reach home.

Just a highlight here, the only fun part of today, was dunking those top pengawases, and Fu Ying highlighted my hair.

Worn out,
-JshFiilzTyrd~

Another advertisement.

2009-06-28T01:01:00.004+08:00

This is another entry for the competition. I solely made it for the competition and myself. In no way I claim any of the video and audio to be mine. Movie production by me.

50 sec advertisement

2009-06-27T20:22:00.003+08:00

I have been very busy for this whole week. 4 dudes from 4 Damai made this video 4 a competition 4 EST.. Do watch. Bear with us amateurs alright? =)..

and behind the scenes.. You will tend to notice different shirts.. because this is done in 2 days.

Lmfao..

2009-06-22T14:32:00.006+08:00

Simple, yet elegent, but yet some people just make it so hard for themselves... I bet YOU don't even know what the title's full sentence mean.

Me been hearing news about backstabs from people like you. Yeah hell you know who you are. Ye know? Putting your name as anonymous in the chatbox ain't gonna work. I posted before, people who don't dare to show who they are, are really sad cowards. If you have something to say, the basics is your name you idiot. And mind, I don't read anonymous readings.

I got 3 words for you: Get A Life. Save your time from shitting at people's back. No one really cares.. Yeah and I have a rough idea about who you are, rephrase, WHAT you are. Immature being, grow up before telling me more nonsense k? Ye have a brain the size of my fingernail. Grow up k?.. I don't speak child language, oh yeah, your english vocab and grammer sucked big time. FYI.

People change. I get it. But some change for the greater good. Some change to be complete assholes.. Worthless is the word. Where you unfortunately belong in the category. I have my life to live. I just wasted 5 minutes to let the world know anonymous people like you are lifeless and brainless..

Go back to elementary school you retard,
-Jw~

Summary of the week

2009-06-12T17:51:00.002+08:00

On hold..Later update lol.

Its a tag.

2009-06-03T11:08:00.005+08:00

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
- Nah its already my favourite spot...

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
- Tired.

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with?
- Parents.

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
- Hell yeah..

5. Will you ever donate blood?
- Yes, only thing is I hate the needles, which some may be reused again..

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
- Duh?...

7. Do you want someone to be dead?
- Depends.

8. What does your last text message say?
- Goodnight..lol

9. What are you thinking right now?
- Why am I doing this tag when I can dota..

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
- Always?..

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
- 9++.. =D

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
- I got it for free. WD-40..

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
- Refer to number 10.

14. Who was the last person who text you?
- =)

TEN people to do the quiz: (simply put)
1. Ariel
2. Boon Hui
3. Chi Kei
4. Shu Ying
5. Ai Lin
6. Sze Jie
7. Zach
8. Joanne
9. Jie Sheng
10. Justin Wong

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with ?
- You got ar boon?..

16. Is no.1 a male or a female?
- Name confuses you ain't it?. Its a he..

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together, would it be a good?
- Of course it would be good, if only they were gay.

18. What is no.1 studying?
- Anime..

20.Is no.4 single?
- Dunno..guess so..

21. Say something about no.2..
- Badminton hardcorer.. Always say "come one on one la!" if you insult him.

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together?
- Very matching.. If only they knew each other..

23. Describe no.9:
- A guy who sees himself in his inspirational deviance, who despises people's blogs with contents more then 50% of it are cam-whore photos, as well as criticizing the criticizers who have no right to criticize and I find it surprisingly right.. Possesses extraordinarily powerful english vocabulary, he can pulvarize you in a one on one debate even its only about why do people breathe through their noses. He's pretty much like me though..

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight?
- Not possible, they're prefects probates, like me =).. And we're all in the same PST. (Problem solving team).

25. Do you like 8?
- She's cute (not), she's hot (not), she's singaporean, and she's fuggly(lol). She said all these herself wahaha.. DUH i'm taken..==

Why nothing about 5 and 10 one?... lame tag..

Over and out. Literally.

2009-05-31T21:13:00.009+08:00

How wonderful. And to think that 3 weeks of examination would never end.. But it did!.

School's out. Holidays are here.. And they bore me to death.. I love to keep myself busy and entertained.. I just simply despise standing still or sticking my ass on a chair for even a few minutes not doing anything..(except on the computer of course). And since holidays hath arrived, plans for holidays must be planned..

0. Plan what to be planned.
1. Church camp on the second week of holiday.
2. Learn Cziffra's Flight of the Bumblebee. (and no it's not like Maxim's)
3. Basketball.
4. Cycling.
5. Screw my homework.
6. Maybe go out pyramid on random days. (I'm so free)

I supposed to end my prefect's probation by last friday. Instead they dragged on some more... Ketua Pengawas told us probates that she would announce who passed and who fail by sms.. Lame isn't it?.. What's more, it's more dramatic if they announced out in public in front of all the other probates.. I'm getting sick of still wearing a white shirt and a pink tag. And yes, its gay.. Pass or fail it aint matters. From what 3 months was intended, they dragged on to 5 months..

Weather's hot.. Drink plenty of water. It's 60% chance higher to get heatstroke now compared to 2 years ago. Now why am I talking about the weather.. Nah its just FYI.. This holiday I'm really gonna play the godlike song..Flight of the Bumblebee by Cziffra, not Maxim..Watch the video at the bottom, I dare you. And hell yeah I'm learning it. I somehow got the piano score.. Don't bother asking me how I got it. I got it in a somewhat dishonest way..lol...

If you think this video is too small, just go http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8alxBofd_eQ. I recommend too..

Your's truly,
-Jshwa~

The times..Frshz Times.

2009-05-14T22:40:00.006+08:00

Exams this week..next week, and the next next week.. I respect those who can really cope with form 4.

Looking back of what I hath done during the past 5 months of my form 4 life, I realised something is missing.. I don't know.. The sense is there.. I started form 4 with plenty of hope, passion, and determination.. Till the end of January, I began to realise people who have been telling me form 4 is honeymoon year are telling me true lies.. Look at those art stream students.. They're practically walking around with a smile like nothing's happening.. Whereas science stream students are walking around witha long face..usually..

Going back on the best happenings to me this year.. One of it is performing with a band in Prefects Dinner held in SMK Seafield's hall.. Well because Seafield is the only school in petaling that has a air-cond dewan.. We call ourselves Strings and Things. Zach and Zarif the guitarists, Nick Ng our lead singer, also playing the guitar, and with me on the grand piano. Well i expected a synthesizer.. Its more fun..=) Anyway that was my ever first time performing in a band and I wan lovin it..

The other is entering 4 Damai itself. God blessed me with a really open minded class, a very muhibbah class, meaning very racial.. As well as a very entertaining class.. I'm willing to bet no other class in form 4 has all indians, chinese, and melay mixing together so well, and I mean all.. We joke around, fuss around, with a Shee Foong to bring joy and laughter to the class every single day, 4 Damai is the ever best class..

The other times.. Frshz inspired me. (only a few people would know the word frshz). Well at least his blog brought me back into blogging and thinking back on times. And hell yeah, the fresh times, to me are the best times.

And for that, I'm contributing to the 4Damai blog. http://AllAbout4D.blogspot.com. Not much for now, much for the future. And the main reason why you find me inactive right here right now.

I'm hooked on to The Riddle by Gigi D'Agostino. Not a popular song, but its awesome, till I took the initiative to learn the song by ear.. Scroll down till you find Maplestory The Riddle and play it. You may not like maplestory but you may like the song =).

And yes I finally recall what I felt was missing. Intrigueness.

His mind is a beacon in the veil of the night. For a strange kind of fashion there's a wrong and a right.

The Riddle - Gigi D'Agostino

Logoff,

»Wjw ♥ Njw«

For people who understand chinese only~

2009-05-11T18:25:00.001+08:00

Turn off my blog song and play this song~ Please do not play this song if you think it's disgusting.

Presenting, Da Bian He Xiao Bian =)..

Lesser update.

2009-05-05T22:20:00.002+08:00

Back, only for the moment.

As you people can see I'm quite already inactive in blogging. Quite alot of stuff to do.. When I'm completed with everything I shalt continue my life in blog.

A little notice here, my class opened a new blog. AllAbout4D.blogspot.com. Its new, its still lame, it will get better as time goes by.. For ye folks out there faithfully checking my blog now and then, I really appreciate you all, as well as for giving me over a 1000 hits already. See my hit counter. I will try to finish outstanding stuff to get back to this blog and continue on my journey of blogging.

"There are many things that I would like to say to you, but I don't know how."

Oasis - Wonderwall

Yours truly,
-Jw²~

A Tag by the TzeLik

2009-04-25T14:05:00.002+08:00

So long...wdf..=D

1 . What have you been doing recently?
* Breathing?..

2 . Do you ever turn your handphone off?
* Hardly..

3 . What happened at 10am today?
* Fire Drill!! Hahax..

4 . When did you last cry?
* Forgot.. I smelt onions..

5 . Believe in Fate/Destiny?
* Predicts them..

6 . What do you want in life now?
* What do I want in life LATER?..

7 . Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
* I don't go out in the rain =).. (But i love doing it)

8. What's your favourite thing to do on bed ?
* Stare at the ceiling

9 . What bottoms are you wearing now?
* Apple bottom jeans.

10 . What are the nicest things in your inbox?
* No nicest..

11 . Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
* For what reason?

12 . Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
* Er...no?....

13 . What was the last movie you caught?
* Forgot liao lorh...

14 . What are you proud of?
* Piano skills..=DD

15 . What does the oldest text msg in your inbox says and who is it from?
* Sila top up untuk meneruskan panggilan dan sms. Dari Maxis.. lols...

16 . What was the last song you sang out loud?
* Pokerface..

17 . Do you have any nicknames?
* Jw²

18 . What does the newest text msg says and who is it from?
* =)

19 . What time did you go to sleep last night?
* 1am..

20 . Are you currently happy?
* lol yeah..

21 . Who gives you the best advice?
* My concience..

22 . Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
* Love it...but parents restricted me.. =(..

23 . Who do you talked to on phone last night?
* No one..

24 . Is something bugging you right now?
* Yes a bug..mosquitoe..

25 . Who is the last person to make you laugh?
* My class de..forgot liao...

26.Do you like yourself?
* Wut?...

27.You want $5 or $10?
* Why not have both?

28.Do you think you are stupid sometimes?
* Of course..

29.Who is your best best best fren?
* Not sure sia.. ( why all questions so hard one..)

30.What will you do if you like that boy?
* Why suddenly got gay question one..

31.Who is your favourite stars?
* The moon..

33.Do you had even stead before?
* ?

34.what type of boy do you like?
* Are the questions getting gayer?

35.Now are you single/attached?
* Who dunno?.. =)

Watch:

2009-04-15T19:26:00.002+08:00

This song rocks big time..=D

Close call..

2009-04-15T18:49:00.004+08:00

Short post bah..since my time is short..

Just wanted to thank God for a little miracle

Yesterday I was stung by a bee, I had no idea how it got on my arm lol..

Suddenly felt a sharp pain, look at my arm, saw a bee, straight brushed it off.. Swollen...

Applied a little bit of medication En. Tasnim gave me.. Swollenness subsided, but still pain till today..

What I wanted to thank God was, The bite, was between my 2 blood veins, in other words, it missed my bloodstream. So the poison didn't go into my blood...never wanted to imagine what would happen if it did..

So it missed my bloodstream. It went into my muscle instead. I flex abit also pain lol.. But I have something called perserverance..=).. (I have no idea what I'm talking about..)

Over and out,
-Jw~

Tag..

2009-04-13T13:48:00.004+08:00

Finally another post...

50 First Reactions:

1. Beer: What kind?

2. Food: Yum...

3. Relationships: Duhhh.......

4. Crush: Don't have..*winks*

5. Power Rangers: Kiddy stuff...

6. Life: Read my blog link...

7. The President: Dream on...

8. Yummy: ?....

9. Cars: I CAN'T FRIGGIN WAIT TO DRIVE...

10. Movie: Waiting impatiently for Terminator: Salvation to be released..

11. Halloween: This is Halloween..^^

12. Sex: Aha...

13. Religion: Christian

14. Hate: Plenty..

15. Fear: Don't really know..

16. Marriage: Secret..=x

17. Blonde: ...

18. Slippers: Breaks most of the time...

19. Shoes: Loving my addidas original walking shoes..

20. Asians: I'm a south east asian = SEA

21. Past time: Plenty..

22. One night stand: Lol...

23. My cell Phone: W380i.. flip and its purple..

23. Smoke: Factories..

25. Fantasy: Not much. I live in a reality world..

26. College: Taylors, Monash, Inti

27. High school Life: Sucks..

28. Pajamas: Don't wear..

29. Stars: Twinkle twinkle..

30. Center: of what?...

31. Alcohol: Solvent for lipids..

32. The word love: Four letters..

33. Friends: Must in life..

34. Money: Everyone needs that..

35. Heartache: Experienced..

36. Time: Lunch time..

37. Divorce: Only retards divorce..

38. Dogs: Hate dogs..most of them..

39. Undies: Are you wearing today? Yes I'm asking you....

40. Parents: ...

41. Babies: .............

42. Ex: Still talking..

43. Song: Relative to music..

44. Color: Colour blind..not serious case..

45. Weddings: Grand..

46. Pizza: Love it like @&*^$@^&*%^*%*$^*(

47. Hangout: Anywhere..

48. Rest: Offline..

49. Goal: Olè, Olè Olè Olè...

50. Inspiration: Anyone, anywhere, anytime, anyday, anyhow..

I tag:
YOU...

Flashbacks and Reality Strikes..

2009-04-05T21:02:00.002+08:00

I was never good at maths, but I believe I have your undivided attention..

Firstly, hell of a teacher to lose my report card, and dared to say that it's not her fault. I clearly gave my report card to her in the beginning of the year..

Secondly, my baby caught dengue.. Get well soon darling.. *hugs and kisses*

Thirdly, my main emphasis of the day:

Take a look back in the days of Form 1,2 and 3.. I'd like to name the term: flashbacks. Some lives were hell, some were bliss. To me its that, some the other way round, bliss then hell. Then take a look around you, people change one by one. Some to be a better man, some for the greater good, whereas some changed to be a complete asshole.. Look, some of you were great, used to be well looked up upon by others, being followed as a good example to look up on..and ye people hath turned so friggin lc now.. Reality strikes, many people who looked upon you shall despise you to the core. And as for those who changed for the greater good, are those I shall look up to, and be respected.. I found my idea of this post by Jie Sheng's posts. Not surprisingly, all of his posts are well, true. Hurt if may it hits. Looking back over the arguements he had with some idiots, well practically not all idiots, some are weak enough as not to put their own name to post in the chatbox.. And yeah, I hate anonymous people. Think of suddenly a person called 'anonymous' sends you a sentence like 'You suck, everyone hates you. Go kill your own mother la.' or something like that, and it just gets you wondering to death who that person is. Ye like that? Yeah you know who I'm talking about, people who are too afraid to show who they are. I ain't picking a fight, overall speaking, anonymous persons who post things without leaving their real names are cowards, real cowards.. Don't like it? Go find the one who made this quote..

I'd have plenty more to say, only that my time is vow. This above statements are only the views of a neutral party who analyses the arguements, and critiques the ones to be critiqued.. Last but not least for now, I despise those who give unworthy statements about God and those who gossips the wrong gossip.. Now would your God liked that?

"You gotta let me inside even though it hurts. Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"

Lifehouse - Whatever It Takes

Your's truly,
»Wjw ♥ Njw«

Friday..

2009-03-28T15:29:00.009+08:00

Title says it all, photos says everything. Note: My hair sucked big time..==

Take 2, I'm indicating the take 2 sign xD..

Almost all the hand gestures are done by CYA..xD

Thursday...

2009-03-28T14:48:00.017+08:00

Photos shalt do thy talking..

Thursday, in the lab, doing chemistry experiment.. Magnesium strips~

A few minutes later, results were shown:

Nice hor? success~

Then Ian, the one on the right looking at the camera, did something random, but yet so cool.. And lost 5 marks for that.. He directly burned the magnesium strip instead of burning it in the crucible..

But so yeng. Magnificent... click to enlarge, you'll see the full power. (not bad for a camera phone xD)..The light, the smoke, the gloow..perfect..*drool*

Lights out..

2009-03-23T22:43:00.002+08:00

Notice:Short post.

No time to update sia.. Who says form 4 is honeymoon year.. Who says its sweet sixteen?....=.=

Yeah, just so you know, knew, knowed..whichever.. Unless you're a toad in the well, on the 28th march, please switch off your lights for 1 hour from 8.30pm to 9.30pm.. till then, I'm sleeping..zzzz

Your's truly,
-Jw~

Bored Tag..

2009-03-17T18:55:00.003+08:00

It's harder than it looks!
As regular, copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.
Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions.
They have to be real. Nothing made up!
If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers.
You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name: Caryeah

2. A four Letter Word: Crap

3. A boy's Name: Chester

4. A girl's Name: Cheryl

5. An occupation: Champion Pianist. (have to start with c so how?)

6. A color : Chocolate

7. Something you'll wear: Cap

8. (No Question? Anything I like! HAHA.) : Chickens taste good..

9. A food: Cherry pie..

10. Something found in the bathroom or your bag: Chocolate bars..

11. A place: Costa Rica

12. A reason for being late : Checking everything so I make sure I didn't leave anything at home.

13. Something you'd shout: C U..

14. A movie title : Count of Monte Cristo

15. Something you drink : Cuppachino.. How do you spell it....

16. A musical group : Coldplay

17. An animal : Cow

18. A street name : C-street.....

19. A type of car : Caryeah!!

20. The title of a song: Canon in D- Pachabel

I tag: You!...

Lala..

2009-03-16T16:26:00.002+08:00

Short post, can't online due to unexplainable reasons..

Happy Holidays Everyone...although I hate holidays..

Over and out,

»Wjw ♥ Njw 4EvA«

Intrigued by others..

2009-03-11T23:47:00.006+08:00

Ye know,
I've learned to type like this from others.
It's cool.
But only for extremely short posts.
Or you basically have nothing to write,
So you write like that to make it look long.
Lol..

Thats besides the point.
Point is,
I learned another thing from a
retard. I mean friend..
And I find it meaningful and true.
The word is:
I'll do my best.
Okay maybe not word, sentence more like..

To some people,
this may be just something you randomly say anyday
or any situation.
For me,
I began to see the meaning behind this sentence.
Draw out the inner strength from within
to archive something.
If in any circumstance,
you feel your will is failing,
just think this:
I'll do my best.

"3 for the cause you've been, makin. Its 4 for the times you've been, fakin"
Blue - All Rise

Rolling out,

»Wjw ♥ Njw 4EvA«

Random update..

2009-03-10T01:06:00.006+08:00

It was

So I decided to take a crate of

To bombAfter withdrawing

I reached back home at

Look closely, this is for you baby. =)

"One soul, one life, one meaning. As far as we know"

Living End - Have They Forgotton

End,

»Wjw ♥ Njw 4EvA«

This is Halloween..

2009-03-01T15:32:00.000+08:00

Yeah I know it's long over.. My 1st post for piano in youtube.. Stay tuned for more.. =)

Yesterday..

2009-03-01T15:05:00.004+08:00

All my troubles seem so far away... Its a song, get it.. Lol..

As my title says, I don't need repeat liao hor?..

I woke up for merentas desa.. Problem was I woke up late...lol.. So everyone took off the starting point already.. So never mind, I did what I did when I was form 2.. Cycled around them handing them water to drink.. I played assist...hahax..

All the same, after the event was over, I was sweating like all the other runners.. Because in USJ2, there's an uphill.. So...ye get it.. After the run, I and a few of my friends decided on going to Summit to see movie and makan.. (read my previous post, I wrote: 'maybe go summit'..in the end really true lol..) Then around 11, we met in summit. Schaun took me to the phone fair.. Everything was 70% off dammit.. And everything was original.. Oh well I don't need another phone lol.. Schaun introduced me a RM30 2GB M2 memory card.. I bought it instantly.. Usual price is usually RM50++.. Met the others at McDonalds, Sek, Leon, his *ahem* and Tze Lik. after makan liao, we went to the movies and booked the tickets. Leon brought his *ahem* there.. We booked tickets for Kungfu Chefs.. I don't know how to put this... That movie can say it sucked, its funny, and storyline is wierd.. Later we caught up with some random friends.. Its merentas desa day.. Seafield students alone can stand 40% of the people in Summit at that time.. Never mind don't care..

Leon went to his violin class later. Around 3, he finished his lesson. By that time around 15+ people were in front of the movies.. This time, everyone suggested watching Valkyrie. So making me, Tze Lik, Leon and his *ahem* watching the 2nd movie for the day. We totally owned the movie centre.. There were Chao Jian, Yappy, Mike, Shyi, Fabian, Kai Ning, Guo Hao, Kang Yi, Shanel, Shaun Chan, Dicken, Phang, Guo Cheng, .... Too many to remember sia..

After it was over.. The last people left in Summit were me and Tze Lik, we went mcd for the 2nd time to buy our dinner. Left Summit, and walked home around 6pm.

I don't have any pictures because I'm not used to taking them, and I don't really like taking..lol..

"One for the money and the, free rides. It's two for the lie that you, denied"

Blue - All Rise

Rolling out,
»wJ-Wae«

Finally some time to update..

2009-02-27T22:53:00.012+08:00

5,4,3,2,1..

I have so many friggin things to update...maybe I'll go over to some that I remember.. I can't remember much...though..

1stly, in case some people didn't know,

Yeah it says it all doesn't it?.. I hope I'll pass my probation. Very little chance though.. And I'd like to emphasize one thing. About people saying prefects are 'teacher's pets' or 'teacher's dogs'.. So this is to all ye people saying this: STFU. I don't know about other prefects, but I'm not the listening type. Yes I can say I don't listen to teachers, so making me not one of the 'teacher's dogs'. I do my own will, if teachers require help, I do at my own will and enjoyment, not because I was called to. So get it right.

2ndly. Yesterday for project est, we had to create parachutes with 2 A4 papers..and it was dropped from the highest floor, (my class is the highest floor). Someone goes down and check. So, the parachute is carrying an egg. Who's egg did not break would win.. So you get the point.. Mine broke..sadly, but I still got full marks.. Teacher said she liked my design. Lol.. Today I had nothing to do..so I created another parachute on the spot. I used 4 papers this time.. and my cargo was a highligher and a correction tape... After school, the experiment was conducted again as today was the last day. So after watching about 7-10 groups dropped their parachutes and hearing the eggs break, I called out to teacher to watch mine carefully. People were pestering me to let go already... And, so I did. After I let go, they started 'wuooOOOOOO'.. Hahax.. Mine actually 'flew' down so nicely... Like a real parachute.. Oh well, I created this out of boredom, and it brought the opposite to all the people..

On my personal details right now, I have to start to learn not posting them on my blog. As some said blog is for people to read, so keep personal feelings to yourself. In my opinion, this is my blog. I have the rights to post whatever I want to.. But, that person made a point. That is, people would start thinking negative about you if you post the details that makes readers think the wrong way.. Therefore, I will reconsider. If I want, I would post a post about one of my deep thoughts I'm influenced right now. If I don't want, sorry then, no readings about my personal life.. If so, whats the point of putting 'its my life'.. Stupid decisions..

Okay, backtracking.. Dammit I'm getting old. I can't seem to remember past events.. Okay here's some.. I hate to say it though..what to do.. I officially failed my add maths, chemistry, and sejarah.. Expected though..weak subjects.. But I'll work it up..trying to.. Though I'm wondering what chemistry and sejarah is going to be any help to me in my future career.. Screw secondary schools that art stream don't provide music..only provide crap accounts, economics, geography..all I hate.. I'm starting to wonder which retard would say form 4 is honeymoon year..
Relieving stress with Cabal, Dota, plurk, Gc... Call me no life, but this is life..

Tomorrow is merentas desa.. Don't know why they call it merentas desa as we're only running around the whole USJ 2.. And for the 1st time in Seafield, I'm walking..jog a little too.. Totally no mood.. Listen song and jogging..not bad a combo.. My merentas desa number is 1212.. Nice eh? Nice number but not putting in effort to run..not a good combo.. After it's over maybe fly over to Summit to either catch a movie or makan..

I was blogging bout what happened..suddenly I'm talking bout things that haven't even happen.. the retardation in me is kicking in..

Update till here for now.. I'm going Defence Of The Ancient..

"One begins and one's goodbye"

The Fray - Enough For Now

Your's truly-

Wjw ♥ Njw 4EvA~

Tag by Ariel (again).

2009-02-24T22:10:00.006+08:00

Tagged by Ariel Yip
Write 16 random facts about yourself:

1. I am 16. (duh)
2. I can't touch my toes.
3. I'm piano talented.
4. I have perfect pitch.
5. I have finished grade 8 piano with a distinction.
6. I can cycle without any hands including turning at corners even at extreme speed.
7. I have trouble sitting cross legged.
8. I somehow have the ability of human psychology understanding.
9. I never had nose bleed in my life before..
10. I despise chemistry.
11. I'm colour blind. (semi)
12. I wonder why is the sky blue.
13. I'm a pengawas percubaan.
14. I can type friggin fast.
15. I hate backstabbers and retards.
16. I like pie.

I tag:
Anyone who is bored.

Tis the season of loving..

2009-02-13T15:21:00.002+08:00

Supposedly I'd have updated my blog about tioman already...but for some no good reason internet explorer went down yesterday...

Guess the update has been delayed.. And you have the pure liberty to scold Internet Explorer...lol..

Valentines is tomorrow.. Early wish to you people reading this.. Happy Valentine's Day all.. Get some roses, a box of chocolates, and a teddy bear for your partner. Get the saloonist to perm your mother's hair. Get a new belt and a wallet or maybe a Rolex watch for your father.. Get a PS3 for yourself. Lols.

So, early Happy Valentine's Day everyone.

Rolling out,
-Wjw ♥ Njw 4EvA~

I'm back...not..

2009-02-08T09:16:00.007+08:00

To all ye stalkers, I mean readers, out there, I have just fixed my ethanet port in my cpu.. Didn't have time to fix it last 3 weeks..

I can't update right now.. Read my plurk.. it explains.. Yeah sick.. I never fell sick after so long.. Guess it's unlucky to fall sick so near valentine... You'd probebly be wondering why if I'm sick I still have the energy to blog now, its gone down since this morning. (It started yesterday morning) Only the headache is in effect now.. Or I can say my head is still heavy..

Ps: Please ignore blog titles Title Truce Talks and Saturday Stress.. It's not meant for public..but for my personal usage.. But somehow I can;t make it into a prvate post.. And I won't delete it because that someone told me not to. Your co-operation is sincerely appreciated.

I will update after I'm completely healed. Got so many friggin things to update...
Stay tuned...(not)..

Over and out,
-Jw~

Not bad at all..

2009-01-20T14:34:00.002+08:00

Short post: I have an ulcer in my entrance of my trachea..

Today's tuesday, tired out... Later got chemistry tuition at 3.30pm.. Go clean myself 1st..cya.

Going off,
-Wjw ♥ Njw 4EvA~

Title Truce Talks

2009-01-18T14:48:00.011+08:00

The hell I care, the hell I care, the heck I care..

Get this clear...get that clear, first, you said I changed. Later, you wished my old self back.. Which one are you trying to confuse people, or even confuse yourself?

The hell I care, I cared for you as if you were my real younger sister ok? And speaking of friggin which, someone doesn't even want me to change at all now and ever. And somewhat 2 years ago I keep hearing these words 'please change la Joshua' from almost the same person every now and then.. Oh hoh I'm trapped in a dilemma whether to change or not?..

The hell I'd get angry at you, the hell I'd always criticize you about what you always tell me over the phone. THE HELL I'd always say you were my beloved mei.. BECAUSE YOU ARE MY ONE AND ONLY MEI OK?? You'd probably wouldn't and never noticed that, but as hell you know I never lied to you EVEN ONCE.. Once upon a time I told you randomness strikes me.. The hell I even knew whether you gave a damn about it or not.

The hell I'd scold you for f"cks arh? I won't waste my breath talking or commenting anything to anyone I didn't care for.. You have another kor, so you lose one also no friggin big deal right? You made your choice, I'm nobody now to comment anything right? Fine, lets leave things like that. At least you left one big brother to give you a shoulder to cry on, and so call me to leave your life alone to continue your 'JOURNEY OF LIFE"..

"Yeah I know that everyone gets scared, but I've become what I can't be "
OneRepublic - Stop and Stare

Over my head,
-Josh~

Saturday Stress..

2009-01-18T09:56:00.004+08:00

*munches on garlic bread* today is sunday..yea I friggin know that.. But I'm gonna summarize saturday on a sunday... Typical eh?

Alright, get down to business.. Yeah you know who I'm talking to. If it wasn't for your friggin post it won't have gotten that bad.. You think you're the only one stressed? Well THINK AGAIN.. Diusions also I have more than you.. I offline in class, do you?

Btw, you have NO RIGHT to even question how she even can accept me. You didn't that time. It was your friggin problem. And if you knew me so well like you said, you wouldn't even have posted that post.. And get this right, I told you how to stand up for your own decisions, and you decided to use that against me?.. How f*cked up can that get? And you still hasn't even changed ONE FRIGGIN BIT.

I've no time to stand up such nonsense, if you want me to stay out of your so called 'life', so be it. You've got more than you ever bargained for.

"Bound to misery and seduction, there's no need for this self-destruction"

Kingdom Come - Both of Us

Ending right here right now,
- W-Jw ~

Summary of Some Seriously Stressful Situations..

2009-01-16T22:44:00.004+08:00

Speaking of serious, the 2nd week of school is already killing me.. And here I am finally relieving stress..by onlining..

Well I can't seem to recall many things that happened over this week. Ever since I entered form 4, my brain seemed to have slowed down. In other words, the processer in my head is not functioning well.. I tend to forget stuff..which I don't usually.. And I'm extra blur..which is so not me... Yes I'm blur..but not suddenly so blur until recently..

Crappination, my schedule of the week is so full, I can't even go my green house training.. Its on a tuesday afternoon, but I have chemistry tuition.. And can't be replaced by other days because all are filled up with tuitions and activities.. January itself has already swallowed up approximately RM12xx and above if I'm not mistaken. To pay tuition fees and registration fees and useless fees... Never in my life I saw $$ like that just going off my hands.. Nevertheless, for my future, I guess the pain has to be beared..lol.

Over the days, I caught a flu, is it a flu?.. My nose kept leaking in class.. Yes, I mean leaking..you get what I mean... I started to sleep around 11+ at the start, but lately, I've been sleeping around 12am-2am. Don't get me wrong, I don't stay up to online, but doing homework, outstanding homework, and packing bags.. Usually I'd pack my bag in 5 minutes or so. Now it's taking me more than 15 minutes.. The textbooks, workbooks, exercise books, and paperwork are one of the main reasons I'm so blur right now... Compared to form 3,2, and 1, form 4 has seriously alot of these... Sometimes because of insufficient sleep, I'll offline in class.. Twice I went offline in the lab, I was called to run around.. But I didn't of course..

Today, after school, I had choir. I passed the audition for the interschool competition team.. Damn, another stress coming up soon.. Nevertheless I needed the marks for koko..and for the sake of my bass members as well.. Our school choir has archived many during the past few years. 2 years ago, choir of SMK Seafield came in 2nd for the district competition. Last year, came in 1st for a Subang Parade. I don't know the details because I wasn't in for last year.

Anyway I'm going off topic.. I'm talking stress, I'm talking headaches.. I wonder how this year form 5 managed to escape form 4 alive last year.. I just came home from my bm tuition just now...relieving stress now on the computer.. I guess I'll be offline going wireless in school tomorrow.. Don't want that to happen. So I must leave now..

"Cause nobody wants to be the last one there, cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares"

Nickelback - Gotta Be Somebody

Yours truly,
-Wjw ♥ Njw 4EvA~

Computer crashing craziness...

2009-01-10T23:11:00.002+08:00

Last post was at dec 31 2008... thats long...

I just turned 16 the last 3 days ago... Now I know sweet 16 was named for a reason...

I just came back for blogging. I thought my computer crashed, because I couldn't turn on my computer.. Then I sent it for repair. It came back today saying it was just the motherboard that is the problem..so...

THANK GOD MY STUFF ARE NOT GONE..=D

but the con part is...

A motherboard costs far more than a hard drive...==

Sorry this time I ran out of time to put a song... Next time bahs.. My time is running out... Will be back soon for more blogging..

End,
-Jw~

Breakaway Babbling..

2008-12-31T15:27:00.002+08:00

Yeah...breakaway is past...so is my something I don't wish to talk about..

Day 1:

Arrived at Sepang around 4 or 5..wasn't so sure because I was half asleep.. Later all gathered at the hall for briefing while waiting for our room keys.. The youth played games while waiting.. Kinda like harrassed the newcomers by making them do monkey stuff... Ps. Willard made them... =.=.. When finally the keys came, we brought our luggages up to our respective rooms.. There were about 30 rooms booked, and about 90 over people came to breakaway.. Some keys were broken, and then replaced with new ones..around 3 people in a room. Ok sorry I'm going off topic..

When in our rooms, we were called to take a shower as dinner was going to be readyin 30 minutes.. The girls had a little problem because they're girls.. You know what I'm talking about.. Speaking of my room now, my roommates were Christopher Tan and Bryan Ang. Both of them showered first, while I unpacked and explored the room. I discovered that the television channels included star movies, so I watched a little while.. When it was my turn to bathe, I realised I forgotton to bring shampoo and soap.. So I borrowed Chris's...

Went down for dinner and had service later.. Oh I forgot to mention, I was in a group called Papaya Peace. While the other groups included Pumkin Patience, Lemon Love, Fig Faithfulness, Jambu Joy, Kiwi Kindness, Grape Goodness and Guava Gentleness.. Did I miss out any?.... Ok anyway as I was saying, I was in Papaya Peace, our theme song was McDonalds.. You know the tune...

Around 12 or so, we returned to our rooms respectively and had supper, I discovered they provided instant coffee, sugar and tea in the room. The only thing was missing in the creamer... Never mind, me and my roommates played cards, we're not gambling, so you can't say we're breaking rule number 5..lol.

-x-o-x-

Day 2:

After breakfast and service, we played a game called "Don't wet my mummy"... Yeah I mean a mummy, the one egyptians wrap their dead in toilet papers to preserve them..or is it toilet papers?... Anyway, this was how the game went.. Choose the smallest and lightest to carry to be the mummy, in my group, we chose Amanda Sena.. Well she was the smallest and lightest to carry in my group so.. And she was a girl, so it fitted to be called "A Mummy". While other groups selected some small guys..so not suited to be called mummy... The objective was to carry your mummy to the other side of the field while keeping your mummy dry as there are bombers shooting water out of 500ml water bottles.. So you get the idea lah.. I forgot who won.. But I did not get wet throughout the whole game...wonderful..

We had lunch at around 1pm or so. Then we had 1 and a ½ hours of free time. Some went to the beach. Some went swimming. Some stayed in their rooms to be pigs. I went swimming.. The pool was so friggin shallow...and I forgot to bring my goggles.. So I can't really swim... Well at least you can swim freestyle with your head semi-ly up..

Later, we play THE-AMAZINGLY-NOT-SO-AMAZING-BUT-YET-TRULY-AMAZING-RACE.. Yeah you get what I mean..kinda like The Amazing Race that's shown in AXN... My group came in 2nd..not bad for competeting with 7 other teams.. We dashed straight into the sea straight after finishing the race.. The water was so warm...and shallow.. It's man made so of course it's shallow... Then later we return to our rooms to have a shower and take a short break. Then it was dinner and service again..

And we played the final game of breakaway, the final and most I-don't-know-how-to-explain game.. It's called Night Encounter.. It's a christian based game.. The stories of the past lives of christians, I'm not going into religion now.. If you wanna know more, msn me. I'd be glad to ceritakan without fear of being accused as religionist.. I slept around 2.30am..

-x-o-x-

Day 3:

Woke up around 8.15, almost forgetting it was PMR-results-out day.. And I was not home to take my results from school.. So I decided to take it the next day. After breakfast and service, there was grammy awards for best Mr. and Mrs. Congeniality and Newcomer. Then we had photo session.. After having lunch and packing up and checking out, we departed around 2pm..

Arrived in church at 4.30pm sharp as a needle point. My thighs and cramping like I've never walked for 5 days when I've only sat in the bus for 2 and a ½ hours...

Back in home.. Cramp still on.. Unpacked and slumped into the bed.. Thinking of my PMR results...

Ps: I thank everyone for the pigeon hole notes.. I appreciate them very much as they mean a lot to me..

"Here I wanna be a stranger"

Goldfrapp - Forever

Yours truly,
- W-jw ~

A blessing of tis season..

2008-12-25T23:53:00.002+08:00

Merry christmas to all~ And to all a good night...=)

"A gift of love, a gift a joy. "

Good things come in small packages

Yours truly,

-Jw~

Time has come..and past..

2008-12-23T00:20:00.004+08:00

Finally...and I mean finally, carolling spree is over.. I can sleep for 3 days and not wake up..get what I'm talking about..

Anyways, the days are closing by where all the events seem to happen at once.. Lemme list them out for you.

1. 25th dec: Don't tell me you don't know what day is this...
2. 26th dec: Morning of afternoon go take the friggin PMR results. Night bbq at church.
3. 28th - 30th dec: Breakaway camp.
4. 31st dec: Watchnight service.
5. 1st Jan: and it goes on.....

Btw forgive me on crapping about my future events. Here's what happened today.. The main event, carolling in Sunway resort, not pyramid.. Forgive me I said it was pyramid earlier... Moved to 4 different locations..each location we have to sing 6-7 songs wtf... And don't forget 2 days ago there was carolling too.. I have officially lost my voice..or more to say, my voice is hoarse now.. At least it paid off.. After that, around 9pm or so, went to KFC for dinner, and believe it, I've never seen so much chicken in my life.. Glorious chicken... The money came from the funds that church recieved from the past 2 days's performance.. I practically swooped 6 chickens, I think..and some meltz and fries..2 drinks.. Really enough le zzz.. I'm stuffed.. This can last me for another 3 days without food...

Later around 11pm, some carollers went to Old Taste, brother of Old Town White Coffee I guess. In taipan. We had a nice chat there, I ordered ice-blended mocha.. Regretted. I can't sleep. That's the reason I'm blogging right now... I guess I'll be sleeping around 4 or 5am.

~

I finally found my reason for living, darling, how could I live without you..

I'd give it all. I'd give for us. Give anything but I won't give up.

Nickelback - Faraway

Signing off,
-Jsh~

Back and tired out..

2008-12-20T23:11:00.002+08:00

Notice: Short post.

Returned from Tioman yesterday, returned from choir church performances 5 minutes ago... My legs are aching and my head is spinning. I can't sit and I can't stand....

Speaking of which, I gotta keep my word of my recent post..updates of my trip and stuff.. I guess imma have to delay it..(sorry people) Kinda left my camera in my bag, in church right now...dammit.. Haih, tomorrow carol some more....can really kill my throat larh.. My school choir also won't kill us that much... Then on Monday again carol at Pyramid... When the real christmas comes I'd have no voice already.. Yeah I'm complaining all right.. As I've said, I'm worn out..

"I searched for conversation but I was lost for words"

Tim McGraw - Tears In The Rain

Your's truly,
Jw²~

it keeps going on..

2008-12-14T22:32:00.006+08:00

Read my last post about my 'dysfuntional functions of my phone'. Yeah...it went to the extend of my limits.. Added 2 'dysfuntional functions'.

1. Now slide down also no light..
2. 2 hours later, the whole display disappeared..

Yeah f*ck it... Guess what, I was so friggin stretched to my limits, I tore my phone apart. Its a slide phone...so, tearing apart...you'd get the idea.. I practically ripped the phone apart..now it's in piecies in my drawer in case I need any spare parts. I'm in desperate need of another phone now.. A simple one doesn't matter anymore, need to sms and call. Get me a Nokia 1600 also I won't give a damn about it.. I just wanna..sms...

Came back from choir in church, weary... Then cycled to U12 with Ming Yan, Jeffery and Josiah. Reached there, I saw Alex and his bro Nick throwing a basketball at the trees. I found out there were trying to destroy ant nests...Red ants actually, was bitten by at least 5 of them at different parts of my body...you know what i'm talking about.. Played some basketball. Later that night, had dinner with some of the youth in Mamak Bistro.. 1st time cycled there, accompanied by Ming Yan.. Dinner over, cycled back with Ming Yan again. But before we left the mamak, tersaid something to Mel and Ming Yan...I don't know whether I'll regret it or not..

Tomorrow, actually 10 hours from now, I'm heading to Tioman for 5 days, back at friday.. Also stated in my last post I didn't want to go... Anyway, next update might be about my trip, hope to post some pictures too..if I ever took any.. (I don't really fancy photos taken of me..) But since phone is gone(destroyed)...so I guess I'll have to resort back to my old digital camera I hadn't touched for 2 years...

12 days to go for PMR results to be out...

~

I'm sorry darling, my phone really is a piece of junk... I love you darling, I promised I'll be true forever..I miss you..

Tell me this will last forever, Dont you ever leave

Jesse McCartney - Without You

Leaving keyboard,
-Jw~

And so it goes on..

2008-12-11T17:03:00.002+08:00

Back..and looking good... Hair's abit messy though..

Oh ya...I'm retiring....F*ck the people there...racist bastards... Not surprisingly, all of the people working at mcd are malays. Next time when imma find a job, restaurants are not in my options list anymore.. Well as they all say, teenagers just wanna find a job to get experience and stuff.. So I guess I won't get the amount of salary I imagined.. But who cares? Its better to leave rather than to suffer at they're hands... Cb crew...

3 more days to go... And I'm away to Tioman for an unwanted holiday planned by my parents.. Please lar..I wanna stay home and do my stuff, they insist me to go along.. I'm going for 5 days, back by friday...

Haih...yeah, they found out who was the him... It was me... Can't conceal it anymore.. I'm only speaking to those who know what i'm crapping about here.. After all 2+2 will still remain 4..nothing's gonna change that.. Yeah...and screw my phone... I'm so irritated by the dysfuntions I could even throw it into the river if my instincts didn't tell me not to...

The latest dysfuntional update: When I slide up my phone, the lights go off. When I slide it down, it turns back on...

Let me list out the dysfunctional crap my phone features to you:
1. The microphone spoils for no good reason. Meaning when I talk on the phone you can't hear me.

2. The speaker has problems. Sometimes it would have crackling sounds, but thats ok when I kacau the phone abit it comes back normally.

3. The mp3 function reads files from the phone memory, not the Micro SD memory.

4. You have set screen saver and wallpaper. If you turn off your phone, and on it back, it disappears. You have to set it again.

5. The vibration really annoys me. Sometimes it vibrates properly, other times it just hums.

6. The 1.3 mp camera if set to 1280x1024, the picture wont cover the whole screen.

7. Text messaging. You typed a word into the phone asking it to remember the word for future use. After a few days of not using that particular word, it disappears from the dictionary.

8. IT HAS NO FRIGGIN CALCULATOR.

9. Recording videos, it doesn't record sounds..

10. And the latest, lights turn off when slide up, turn on again when slide down..

So as you can see my intentions of destroying the phone...so, F*CK NOKIA 5300! No offence Nokia, but that phone really suck balls...

15 days to go for PMR results to come out..

"Can't quite tell just what it means to me"

Greenday - Warning

Leaving keyboard,
-Jw~

Another tag....

2008-11-28T19:15:00.002+08:00

K I'm rotting for 1 week with no new posts...here goes..

Rules :

- Pick your birth month
- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you. (i'll make them small words coz i cant strike)
- Bold (or italicize) the best apply to you .
- Copy to your own blog , with all twelve months .
- Tag 10 people (wtf?...)

January
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

February
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

March
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

April
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

June
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite (at times) and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous (funny? me? -.-). Loves to joke. Good debating skills. (VERY) Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

July
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties instudy ing. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

August
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

September
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

October
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

November
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

December
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

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I'm a January dude, so..

January
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

I tag:
No One...

Tagged by Li Teng

2008-11-21T12:24:00.005+08:00

Rules & Regulations: Do not copy answers. The tag questions must be 100% the same. Tag people after doing tag. No tagging back.

I Tag:
1. Cerlyn
2. Joanne
3. Shi Hui
4. Vi Vian
5. Wen Hao
6. Melissa Ang
7. Carmen
8. Ariel Yip
9. Tzi Ying
10. Xiang Qi

You guys are obliged to reply......(not)

How you know 1?
Cerlyn - Churchmate

What would you do if you never meet 2?
Joanne - Truthfully I never met her before LOL. She's singaporean. Met her through Aerostory =x

What would u do if 3&4 dated u?
Shi Hui and Vi Vian - ...i'm speechless for this...(some people know why lol)

Would 5&6 make a good couple?
Wen Hao and Melissa Ang - They never even met before..

Do u think 10 is attractive?
Xiang Qi - Er.....=.=

Do u know anything about 8’s family?
Ariel Yip - Parents are pastors...has 2 sisters.

Tell me something about 9?
Tzi Ying - Known her since 12, was a prefect, her class was beside my class.

What language does 2 speaks?
Joanne - Not sure. English, Chinese, Hokkien, Cantonese.

Who is 3 going out with?
Shi Hui - No one gua.

How old is 4?
Vi Vian - 15

When was the last time u talked to 5?
Wen Hao - Last 2 days in Mcd

Who is 6 favourite singer?
Melissa Ang - idk...

Would you date 7?
Carmen Ng - What do you think? =)

Is 8 single?
Ariel Yip - Are you?

What is 9 last name?
Tzi Ying - Ying?...

Would you consider being in a relationship with 1?
Cerlyn - Er...no. Age gap too wide lol.

Which school does 2 go to?
Joanne - Have no idea..Singaporean.

What do you like about 3?
Shi Hui - Curly hair..lmao

Science and Snails

2008-11-21T01:03:00.009+08:00

Lool...this happened just 5 minutes outside my house...

I found a snail, it was the harmful one, the one that destroys crops, plants in your garden, makes holes in leaves... It was crawling on my cemented pathway...avoiding the heavy rain that was falling at that time. Anyway so, since boredom took control of me, I decided to torture the snail. Bwahaha...

Stupid snail....eat eat eat my garden plantations only..

So later I followed my science book, it said the snail's internal body has some sort of chemical reaction when it meets sodium chloride(salt)...So I decided to experiment(torture).

This was what happened instantly

As clearly as the light reflects, you can see that the snail's 'body' turns to liquid.. I have simply no idea why it becomes like that, but it's fun though...destroying pest that destroys our garden.

I'll end here and now...Tll the next post.

Don't wanna be the loser and I've had enough
N'Sync - Bye Bye Bye

End,
Jw

Just another day as they say..

2008-11-19T19:49:00.004+08:00

Back from work as usual...never thought I'd blog about my daily stuff after holidays started...haih..

In case for people who didn't know, I started working in Mcd in Summit 3 weeks ago. The pay sucks but, its still salary though... Have gotten used to the stuff that Mcd does...the only skills I'm lacking now is being the cashier.. Sometimes get confused with the buttons to press and facing some extremely sohai customers...=.= The fun part was preparing the ice creams. Watching the cream slowly swirl down a sundae cup or a cone lol.

After working hours I'd usually just walk around Summit..wandering around aimlessly. Reaching home later I'd just glue my eyes on the computer screen. If I'm not playing GC i'm reading people's blog... I quitted friendster with no regrets... (Yeah people, quit friendster and start blogspot!) Later, run upstairs, and dive to bed to catch forty winks... This just goes on for days sia.... Wondering am I turning into a robot liao zzz... I'm for randomness not robotness...=.=
Ps: Dont ask me what GC is cuz I wont bother to answer lol.

"I've become what I can't be"

OneRepublic - Stop And Stare

Till next time,
-wJ-Way~

Whish Lisht...

2008-11-15T18:31:00.004+08:00

Yea the title says it all..note this is a short post...

I was nagged by 2 people to do this...I have no intention to but, zzz, for their sake lol....

This is what I would want for my birthday...(I thought this by myself...)

A new phone...
Able to wear contact lenses.
A cheesecake.
My parents to leave the modem as it is...
My own car..(to drive when i'm 17)

And the impossible/unpredicted..

Straight A's in SPM.
Be in college next year.....
UPSR, PMR and SPM never existed..XD
Meet Obama in person.
Mona Lisa painting in my room...(thats so random...)

Ok imma end now...whats difficult is not wishing what I want..is knowing whether its possible or impossible to get or not...

-Jw~

Every title has it's meaning

2008-11-13T01:19:00.002+08:00

Yeah....the title of this blog says it all...so does my new skin and my new slogan...nice eh? Jk nia~

Well, I know its lame...writing posts in the wee hours of the morning, well thats my passion, lol... That's what gave me my title about: shadows of darkness...I thrived in the depths of darkness sometimes because I cant seem to find the light of the world... And to think actually thou once said: Let there be light!... I dont wanna bore anyone with this post now...people might not like it..

Just wanted to explain bout my new skin and title. Kinda like it...comment bout it~.. This few days happened alot of things.. Imma blog about it in the next post.

Random thought: Live your life well, you only have one..

Yours truly,
Jw

Perplexing Presidency

2008-11-07T00:22:00.012+08:00

I've sorta nothing to do so imma jump to political news LOL...

NEWSFLASH: OBAMA WON!@#$@$%$!@#$! (IN YOUR FACE MCCAIN!)

Yep Senator Barack Obama is now officially President of the United States of America. Hard to believe, he's the first african-american in history to ever hold the post of President in the US. I trust there's gonna no more so called 'racism' as he once said. Joke here, a nigga in a white country is like having a chocolate chip in a white bar of chocolate...ok I made that up...=x

High expectations of Obama includes tamping down the US arrogance and aggression abroad. Obama has successfully realised the celebrated dream of slain civil rights leader Dr Martin Luther King Jr. Congratulations Martin, ur brotha has just made ur dream come true lmao. This is his dream: Seeing people judged not by the colour of his skin, but by the content of his character. Well we're suppose to see what's going to happen in SMK Seafield, for someone similar to Obama's case has been elected for some reason, guess its oso Martin's dream lols.

Random thought: Every great idea will be eclipsed by greater ones.

Your's truly,

- wJ-whai ~

All about movies..

2008-10-28T11:27:00.005+08:00

Notice: Short post..

Watched High School Musical yesterday, it was good...in fact it was rather fantastic.. news went that it smashed all box office records!! Kinda forgot the amount..but it was friggin ALOT... Imma see Quantum of Solace rawr~

Ps..AXN too sexy ad is cool...and so random LOL

End,

-Wjw~

Depression Dilemma

2008-10-27T20:58:00.004+08:00

24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 31 days a month... Maybe I'm exaggerating, but it's true. Sometimes, I would just wonder, why this term, called depression, exists in the dictionary...

Depression, a term used when it occurs a sharp pain in the heart, or feeling so extremely down... We as humans all just want happiness, joy, and all the other good events.... But as people are enjoying, the term depression is usually right behind the mind... When the world seem to turn against you, all thats left of you seems to have gone far out in the sky. People like you and me, we take things for granted, as if all were laid right in front of us, ready for us to grab it.... But wrong as it is, it will be gone before we even know it was there under our noses. Parents always keep nagging, wanting us not to take things for granted....all of us did...and slowly as time goes by, only nothing would have been left for us..

When does this term depression comes in?
I don't know about you, but I feel this everyday... It has become like a routine for me, until it seems as if God installed this into my life from the beginning... Maybe its just a punishment for me because I don't really appreciate what I have been given from young. Or maybe its just because suffering is what I live with... Considered yourselves blessed, you are but you just don't see it...like me. You, yes I mean you, may also think your lives are full of depression, but I can even say that you seriously don't even know the FULL definition of depression...This is the reason of why you people see me as a very f*cked up person being brought up unproperly by a dysfunctional family. Well I'm not going to deny that, it is actually the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.. I'm sad to admit, but I just did.... Being hated by plenty of people makes it worse... When it all adds up, the total sum might be nothing more then mere depression. Especially when it involves friends... I lose friends more easily than making them.. Thats why I treasure them who really understands me and support me all the way.. Yes you know who you are and I'd just say a sincere word of thanks to you. But to those who just judge me like judging a book by it's cover, all I can say to you is ............... I'd better not say in case more hatred is conjuored towards me..

Imma bring this to an end now... Once upon a time I thought this incident, this happening, was going to be history, but I find now that it's going to be the present, and the future till the day of my final breath... Once upon a time, I'd thought my life was going to be better. Apparently, those thoughts are in vain... In fact, the thoughts now that are swarming through my mind, are filled with the only events of depression...

By yours truly,
Wj-Whay

Bored tag..

2008-10-25T15:59:00.004+08:00

1.Do you have secrets?
- Who doesn't?

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- Have everyone to make love, not war...=P

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
- A bull's...

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- Buy a mansion, feast at wendy's everyday, renovate the toilet and install a 77' inch plasma tv. If theres any money left it will go to RMCC..if you know what it means...=)

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
- Prehaps.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- Loving someone who's loving me?...

7. If you had 3 wishes what would it be?
- Good grades.
- Get a laptop
- Screw Anwar...

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Erm, let it be? Its their will...

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
- Duhh....

10. What takes you down the fastest?
- Nothing?

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
- I'm not god..

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
- Friends and friends alone..

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- Each choice has it's pros' and cons'.. I can't really decide..

15. Would you give all in a relationship?
- Yes.

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- The one I love more?...

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- Depends on the situation.

18. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
- Refer to number 14

19. What's the hardest thing for you?
- Maintaining relationships with friends...

20.Tagging:
- Anyone who wants to be tagged..=x